Have You Ever Felt Like Dumbo?

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As the holiday season approaches, I must confess I feel a bit like Dumbo.  Sad, lonely and abandoned.  It’s not that like Dumbo, I don’t have a friend like Timothy the Mouse.  The fact is that I am eternally grateful for the many friends who have stuck by me as my life has changed dramatically.  But I still feel a bit like the scared Dumbo above, lost and lonely.

I think holidays bring up many unresolved issues in our lives and when all are celebrating, those of us whose lives have changed irrevocably have a hard time adjusting to the merriment.  It’s not that we truly want to bring others down to our own low vibrations, but we feel how we feel and sometimes, we simply need a Timothy the Mouse to bring us a magic feather in order for us to see how we can fly.

It’s a difficult season when we have lost loved ones to death or abandonment.  A part of our hearts go with those who leave in whatever form.  A broken heart learns to heal albeit slowly and there comes a time when we have to confront ‘the elephant in the room.’  For my own self, I am struggling quite honestly with how to go about my first holiday season ~ mentally, physically and emotionally for myself and my sons.  It is not an easy transition for any of us and one that I’ve learned is without any rules.  The best we can do is to look beyond ourselves to those around us, keeping in mind that all are hurting as well.  But to have the courage to enter the circus of holiday parties, feeling like Dumbo, is something that I’m honestly struggling with and I am hoping that someone who reads my blog may have the magic feather for me so that, like Dumbo, I can learn to fly.

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I know that my situation is not abnormal and that perhaps you have endured this change as well in your life, or know someone else who has survived this type of heartbreak.  I would truly appreciate any and all support, advice and ‘magic feather’ that you can offer at this time.  I know that in my heart, I can endure the holidays with my head held high for my children’s sakes, but at what price to my own self?  I battle with these thoughts and more daily as Thanksgiving approaches and the hubbub of the holiday season and parties begins.

I apologize for such a sad post today.  Usually I am upbeat and try to be inspirational, but I am faltering and now look to your kindness with hopeful yearning.  Does anyone have a magic feather to lend?  I am looking to fly my dear friends.  Any and all help is appreciated and if you feel like sharing any special Timothy advice, I am open and willing to listen and to embrace my strength, my tenacity and my inner love to fly.

Thanks for being with me everyday.  I am so grateful to all of my readers and friends.  May you never let go of your magic feather for we are all meant to fly!

Shine On!

xo

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*Credit to the internet for the photos above of Dumbo from the movie.

 

 

Receiving and Giving Gratitude in 10 Minutes

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There is a calmness to a life lived in gratitude -a quiet joy.

-Ralph H. Blum

Thanksgiving is on its way and I want to share a little something I do that gives me great joy.  I have been taking a few minutes to send a card of gratitude to those precious people in my life for whom I am grateful.  Just a little note which says ‘I am thinking of you’ or ‘thank you for being you’ and sending it off with the touch of the SEND button.

I don’t leave my comfy home nor get out of my pjs to do it.  I simply log onto my computer, go to my site, pick a card or make one with my own photos or elements provided, write my message, click send and voila ~ I send real paper cards through the mail ~ I’ve even sent some delicious brownies and cookies among other fun finds.

The best part is that the cards cost me $.49 for a stamp which is normal and $0.62 for the card.  So for a total of $1.11, I am using my words to spread gratitude!  And yes, it’s that easy. ♥

I know I sound like a commercial, but truly, I adore what I do.  It makes me happy and it delivers happiness when I hear that a friend has received my unexpected card in the mail and is touched by the gesture.  Who doesn’t like to find a treasure in the pile of junk mail and bills?  To just know that someone is thinking of you is such a priceless gift.  I, myself, have been the recipient of many unexpected cards in my life and I can attest to the power of kindness and the amazing accuracy of a well-timed card in helping to raise spirits when you are feeling down.  And even when I wasn’t feeling down, just knowing that someone thought of me enough to write me a note and send it is priceless.

It simply raises up our loving vibrations  ~ for both the giver and the receiver!

In gratitude for your loving energy and support, please feel free to enjoy a card on me.  Just click here!

Shine On!

xo

Self-Love Lesson From A Buck

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“Be patient with yourself. Self-growth is tender;
it’s holy ground. There’s no greater investment.”
– Stephen Covey

In the rush to live our lives, we sometimes force ourselves to go, go, go and we miss out on the lessons that we can learn when we are patient with ourselves and others.  It is in truly embracing all of our qualities, both good and bad, when we invest in ourselves to empower our lives and to improve ourselves.  Taking the time needed to hold our pain and to look within our whole selves to tenderly embrace what is here right now makes all the difference.  To embrace another person’s spirit even when we are not in agreement is to ignite self-awareness in ourselves.

It has been written that ‘time heals all wounds’ and that what we criticize in another person is what we ourselves criticize in ourselves.  To become forgiving of what we dislike in another is to forgive ourselves for the same.  We are whole.  Our soul selves encompass all traits that we recognize in another person and it is what we do with those traits is what matters.  We can choose to forgive them and ourselves for what we deem faults.  We can choose to recognize examples of kindness, patience and love or we can choose to concentrate on pain, suffering and wrongdoing.  It is our choice in how we view ourselves and the world around us.

But to be patient with ourselves, grows our souls, our minds and our hearts in a way like no other.  Sure, I am equally guilty of rushing myself to ‘get over’ painful situations and to drudge on with life trying to find the mercy of kindness without giving myself time to mourn what could be and what truly is in my life.  I’ve tried to ‘get over’ situations that were or were not within my control quickly so that I could feel better.  However, I am finding that to patiently experience what is here and now is the key I forgot I possessed; the key that I didn’t realize opened my heart, mind and soul to a deeper place of understanding and self-growth.

I love this quote and thought perhaps it was meant for others as well as me today.  I was blessed to greet the morning with a visitor with whom I locked eyes for quite awhile.  A six point buck stood majestically across the street from my house and we stood 20 feet apart gazing at each other while the world stood quietly in the morning light.  It was breath-taking for me to see his powerful build and to feel his eyes lock with mine in a few moments of pure energy.  He and I connected ~ it was as if we were meant to meet.  I watched him as he slowly turned and walked away, regally in his own time, across the yard and disappeared behind the trees.  It was a beautiful moment for me.  I looked up buck totem animal and found:

‘The buck is deeply aware of the seasons and adapts to all of them.  He will teach you to keep going through the storms of winter, filled with the joy of being who you are, until the green blades of grass again poke through the melting snow.  When the world seems cold, fill yourself with his sure knowledge that spring will always come again.    He will also teach you how to renew your energy and power, just as he regrows his antlers each season.  If you feel weakened by the challenges of life, breathe in his energy and feel the velvety antlers sprouting as your power returns in full.  Then lift up your chin and show the world who you are, the beautiful and majestic buck.’  here

So please, take time each and everyday to be like the buck as in time, your power returns in full ~ lift up your chin and show the world who you are, a powerful, beautiful and majestic soul who is loved.

Shine On!

xo

P.S.  My heartfelt gratitude to BAngel for the photo.

Loving Embrace Needed

respect“Respect yourself enough to walk away
from anything that no longer serves you,
grows you, or makes you happy.”
-Robert Tew

The above quote came to me as many of them do, in the right time.  Have you found that quotes, people and events come to you when you feel you are at a crossroads and don’t know which way to turn at times?  What examples can you share with us?  Please feel free below in the comments!

I’m at a crossroads in my life.  It is not easy to know which path to choose although I know what path has been chosen for me and I don’t like it.  But then growth happens when we emerge out of our comfort zones and I know in my head that this freedom is a gift, but it is a gift I’d like to return so that I may stay in the comfort of my cocoon where I know how to live.  But it is time for rebirth much to my chagrin at the moment and I am finding it difficult to say the least.  It’s why I haven’t been blogging as much lately for I am lofty in my thoughts, but my essence is suffering.  It is easier to speak/write in higher vibrations than it is to live daily this way when I am feeling lowly.  But I have lived through painful experiences before and I will live through this now as well.  It’s what I know I can do.  I know I have the innate ability to survive even though my heart is breaking.  I will get through this chapter in my life as well, perhaps not unscathed, but with the growth that comes from this experience in my life.  I long to see a crystal ball at times to have some chance at seeing the good that will come from this, but you and I both know that crystal balls don’t exist and that even if I could see, I may fall apart at the result.  So I just keep plugging away, day by day, doing the best I can at the moment.  Many times, it’s a moment to moment readjustment of how I strong I feel and how positive, for creating a new life can be daunting ~ even when I know it is a clean, new page in my life’s book.

We all struggle at times to do the right thing for ourselves and for our loved ones.  At times, we must look plainly at our lives to check in with how we are treated and how we are treating others.  It is in this honest evaluation that we can see with the clearest of eyes and hearts what is going on.  We must protect ourselves at times and hold dearly our self respect and release what doesn’t serve us.

I ask you to remember me for my heart has been breaking for awhile now and I have been trying to keep going, but I am losing a bit of ground lately.  Being compassionate, respectful and kind with others has worn my heart thin and I am grieving.  Perhaps it is just a low point today and we all have them.  I have always been grateful for how supportive you all are to me and I am asking for your loving kindness and understanding.  My future is not sure these days and I need to make my own way in this world again.  I know that someday I will be grateful for the growth that this unexpected experience brings, but for now, I ask for your loving embrace.

Shine On!

xo

P.S.  I posted this and then poof, Lorrie’s post appeared If Only…I Would!  I’m ever grateful that our loving heartstrings connect so quickly!  Make sure you stop by to get your loving embrace from her ~ and here’s mine. ♥♥♥

Behind the Closed Door

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“When one door closes another door opens;

but we so often look so long and so regretfully

upon the closed door,

that we do not see the ones which open for us.”

~ Inventor, Alexander Graham Bell

This is an oldie, but a goodie.  In my own life, I’ve found this to be true.  We become blind to what other avenues are available to us when we continue to only focus on the closed door.  We must open our eyes to entire rooms of possibility instead of keeping our focus on only what we see.  To view life spherically instead of linearly with blinders on, only focusing on what we see directly in front of us does not serve us.

It is a practice to live spherically and not linearly.  I applaud those who are so focused ~ that they can only see what is ahead of them and complete the task.  Bravo to you!  I, myself, am more spherical in my views, thinking and focus.  Yes, I see what is ahead, but I can also swivel my mind in all directions, taking in other people, places and thoughts as I take baby steps on my path.  This way, I can focus on the path, but also on what surrounds me while I am living.  This helps me to see how my words and actions affect myself and others and to find kindness and love in my heart instead of anger and resentment.  I can release what doesn’t serve me in my life and have the courage to know that I am enough even when I feel less than at times.

I do not fear the closed door anymore.  I release my hand on the knob and walk away quietly without disturbing the room’s occupants.  It is ok for me to allow this door to be shut as I would not force a door open which does not release the lock voluntarily.  I scan the room and see a window ajar, a sweet breeze of loving light scented air fills the room and I can breathe.  Ahh, it is a marvelous feeling!

Look around dear friends at your life and spy the window or door ajar!  Welcome the sweet breeze of loving life force and let it surround you now.  Go forth and be open to change, to uplifting light and love in your life.  You deserve it!  Swivel your head and see your path spherically!

Shine On!

xo

Seeking Happiness?

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“The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance;
the wise grows it under his feet.” – James Oppenheim

Are you running around wishing for happiness?  Are you thinking that if you just had more money, better health, a spouse, better grades, a bigger house, a better job or (you fill in the blank) you would be happy?  Well fear not gentle humans, the happiness you seek is right here under your feet!  Yes, you have it within you now.  There’s no need to seek for it outside of yourself.  It is within YOU that your happiness resides.  It is YOU who holds the key.  You are the gardener of your own special brand of happiness and fulfillment.  It is here and now in the Presents of Presence!

Take a moment today to be grateful for the happiness that you hold and know that you are standing with it now.  All the potential for all that you feel you lack is right here waiting for you to awaken from your slumber and to rejoice in the knowledge that your happiness is within you.

Count your blessings and they multiply.  Give of yourself and you expand happiness.  Hold sacred your gratitude for what is and what was and what will be.  Treat yourself and others with kindness and love.  Share.  Connect.  Allow anger to dissipate and move forward in your day with forgiveness.  Be strong, be gentle, be you.

And happiness will flow into your life easily without barriers

for YOU have lifted the dam of doubt which prevented the flow in your life.

Shine On!

xo

Sky Poetry

Alone

lost in thoughts

tears flowing.

Look up I hear

and I see,

I know.

Not alone.

Heavens are here.

Air is fragrant with souls searching

Earth is a warm brownie

and the sun beats her drums.

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Poem by Me.

Shine On!

xo