I am moved beyond words. I’ve had to let the experience settle into my bones and stay awhile. I can’t remember the last time I was so changed by someone. Words fail me and yet I yearn to speak, to share and to mesh with you. But I don’t know if you are up for the experience. I am changed. I cannot go back and unlearn what has entered and tethered my soul, my brain and my very cells. It is as if my heart, my soul have cracked wide open. With the raindrops trickling outside, I hear the peace within my soul beckon to me. Peace which has long-since been avoiding me, now settles into my solar plexus. A wide open space of lovingness, of deep breaths which seem to be a necessity as I write to you.
Reacting so strongly to something so simple yet complex is nothing new for me, except that what I experience now is beyond my words. I am grasping for what to say to you, for how to inexplicably explain what I’m feeling so that you understand. I ache to reach out to hold your hand and to simply be with this new-found understanding.
I was given a gift by Heather and it is to her whom I give my gratitude. An innocuous text came to my phone, a recommendation for an amazing film that I should watch. So I did.
Below is the trailer for the film.
Let me know what you think.