Bad news. Good news. Still news, but boy can any type of sudden news cause a huge blip in life! Stop for a moment and imagine getting good news ~ feel the euphoria of it, bathe in the sunshine warmth of happiness that perfumes the air. You feel good, right? High, happy and you are smiling.
Now imagine getting bad news, feel the drop in your stomach, the curdling of worry, the intense whirring in your head, the prickling of tears in your eyes and the wallowing that often accompanies sadness. Tears, fears and stress abounds.
Highs and lows. They come into our lives. We are like a radar blip in the universe ~ sometimes our blips are high and sometimes they are low. Sure I’ve heard all the cliches about how the pendulum swings and you appreciate the highs by experiencing the lows. Nobody gets a smooth ride and without that high/low thing, we wouldn’t appreciate the experiences of life. I’m not advocating a boring straight line of life without highs and lows. Far from it as I’ve experienced them both and I’ve come to the conclusion that I want to go with the flow, appreciate the highs and the lows for what they are, for what they teach us about ourselves and each other and all the amazing insight we gain from them.
But this morning, looking back at the last few days with the highs and lows I’ve experienced due to a lab error on my tumor markers for breast cancer, Lab Error ~ click here for post I can’t help but wonder how it is I am so easily changed by a few words. Do you know what I mean? With the retesting of my over normal numbers (read abnormal), I plunged myself into sadness, took a whole day for ‘me’ and even though I tried to continue to be optimistic, I confess I did allow myself a little pity party. I’m only human.
And then, last night, when the reality that my numbers are back on track, I was happy ~ until I started my monkey mind stinking thinking that perhaps I need a 3rd test to rule out that the ‘normal’ numbers were not a fluke and somehow another lab error. But then, my brain reminded me that I was fasting the 2nd time and therefore had no other extenuating factors to mar the tests so I can be assured that all is well.
But do you see what I mean? A little bad or good news and I am like a swing ~ sad or happy. It was my dear friend Laurie over at Lauriesnotes ~ click here who with her infinite wisdom reminded me of what I had forgotten. A lesson which I know, but I had misplaced ~ one that I had to share with you.
“Wherever you find yourself today, remember there is always calm…No need to stop the monkey mind…just find a little whisper underneath…that it is ok no matter what…not sick or well….”
And in the a-ha moment that followed my reading her heartfelt comment, the clarity of the lesson astounded me and for that I am truly grateful ~Thank you Laurie! ♥ No matter the results, I knew I would be ok because that is my only option, to be ok. To continue to strive to inspire myself, you and anyone else who needs a friend. Cancer patients, survivors, thrivers, anyone who needs a hand to hold. I will be there for you ~ and I will be there for myself ~ and you will be there for me as well. It wouldn’t have been easy, I wouldn’t have been thrilled to have to deal with the huge pain in the neck (and other places) called cancer, I would have fought (and won, again!) and I would have learned whatever life lesson was ahead.
But this life lesson, this one that Laurie’s reminded us of, is one that I tuck away in my heart. It’s the peace within, the go with the flow, it’s the ‘it’s all ok’ whisper that when we are peaceful, we can hear and obey. My heartfelt thanks for listening to your hearts, to my heart and for connecting with me. We are a mighty community ~ a life force of beauty.
Thanks for connecting with me.
♥ I HEARTily appreciate you! ♥