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Daily Prompt: Simply the Best

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When do your best ideas come?  Mine mostly come at night.  For example, the name of my blog, The Presents of Presence came to me around 4am on one of those famous sleepless nights.  It just popped into my brain, almost like I heard it and I just knew in my heart that it was Misifusa’s Blog’s new additional name.  I get many of those a-ha moments in the middle of the night like that.  Things just come to me, unbidden and I then pursue them when dawn arrives.

But there are moments during those early morning hours, before the family is awake and stirring, when only Tiffy Cat and I are up, that my blog posts write themselves.  Ok, I admit it.  Does that make sense or are you now thinking that I’m totally batty?  Does this ever happen to you ~ that you find something that very morning which sparks a post or that triggers a creativity stream of words that feels endless?  My fingers whisk along the keyboard at breakneck speed in order to capture the words flowing through my mind at 100 miles an hour.  I think they happen to me this way because I am relaxed, I am open and I am receptive.

Those are the posts, the writings, the comments, the drafts that I find most appealing for I know that Source/God/Infinite Spirit have blessed me with help that day and for that, I am eternally grateful.

I’m curious, when is your best time?

Shine On!

xo

Daily Prompt: Simply the Best

When and where do you do your best thinking? In the bathroom? While running? Just before bed, or first thing in the morning? On the bus? Why do you think that is?

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Why Me God?

76342527_God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. ~ C.S. Lewis

Many of us who have endured tragedy, illness and trauma have asked the question, “Why me God?” and I am no exception.  I asked because I thought I didn’t deserve the breast cancer that riddled my body.  I raged because I believed the punishment of cancer was unfair.  I pitied myself.  I cried.  I was depressed.  I stomped around my house when no one was looking.  I was bald, in pain from surgeries and swollen by the amount of steroids and chemotherapy that were killing the cancer cells along with healthy cells.  I threw myself into a heap on the bed yowling in pain physically, emotionally and mentally.   I didn’t do this often, but when I did, it was like a child’s temper tantrum towards his parent (God).  My ultimate was when I gathered myself into a small ball and snuggled into the strong, protective arms of my husband like a child, sobbing into his tear-stained chest wishing he could just carry me for awhile and I could just melt inside of his chest.

But because I was a Mom of 2 little ones ages 1 and 3 years, I couldn’t do that often.  For the most part, I smiled, I faked how I felt.  I tried to make their lives as normal as possible while my tired body wept at night or in the shower.  Luckily for me, they were young so they didn’t really understand the magnitude of what I was enduring and what they were witnessing.  Now when they look back at the family photos when I was not wearing my wig, they don’t remember clearly when I was bald.  They are surprised a bit by what they see.  But as young children, bald or wigged, I was still Mom.

Still me.  That’s one of the important lessons I learned from enduring breast cancer.  No matter what has happened in my life, I am still me.  I”m still in there somewhere amidst the layers of pain.  My core of being that gal who sees life through rose-colored glasses, who sees the glass 1/2 full, who loves hugs, flowers and my beautiful life still shines brightly.

Sure, I’ve lost touch with that gal from time to time, but something always brings me back to her because that’s who I am.  Sure, I can say I’ve endured breast cancer.  I’ve endured many things in my life.  But at the heart of who I am, breast cancer just made my life richer.  It added layers of life changing events which made me dig deeply inside to find inner strength that without those low points in my life, I’d never have known I had ~ without being tested, I would have never had the opportunity to find my light, my inspiration, my blessings, my Presents of Presence.

So the next time you ask “Why me God?’ in a fervent voice, know that somewhere down the line in this journey of life, you will realize your answer ~ it’s because you can.

Shine On!

xo

My heartfelt thanks to one of my favorite bloggers from whom I took the quote above and made it my own.  Thank you Chalkboard Quotes ~ you inspired my post today!

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http://chalkboardquotes.wordpress.com/2013/09/19/hardship/