Since we are moving soon, I’m cleaning out the clutter – decades of it and it’s hard. I am a saver at heart and because I’m downsizing, it’s time to release and move on with my life. Nostalgia takes hold occasionally and I release a few tears as I remember happier times. That which I choose to hold onto are the favorites, the items that bring me joy in my life, not those which remind me of the past.
It’s exhausting work, this decluttering and although I’ve read my share of ‘how to declutter’ and feng shui books, I can sometimes get bogged down in memories when I find a little treasure that I had forgotten. Perhaps it’s the chemo brain or mid-life loss of memory that are the reasons I’ve forgotten. Who knows? But I continue to choose to think that it’s a rite of passage when I can be reminded by an item and then put it in a pile and not pack it away to be moved to our next home.
Letting go is easy for some people. For me, sometimes, it’s a challenge, but I am happy to report that it’s been one of those life lessons that I never wanted to partake in and yet, I’m finding happiness by going through it. I’m releasing and sending items with love to new owners so that they can find joy in them as well. I figure it doubles the joy that the item’s lifetime gives! Does that sound silly? I guess it can sound silly, but it’s a mindset that has been working for me, so I’m sticking with it.
Clutter bogs down the mind, body and soul although when we are in the midst of it, some of us don’t realize it (meaning me). Now that I’m clearing away items that I thought I would use someday or used for a bit and now don’t, I’m finding that it’s opening spaces of light and opportunity in my life.
Have you felt this way?
Change is hard for most of us. Endings are only new beginnings I know, but they are still hard to fathom sometimes when we aren’t sure where the new path is taking us. I think I’d feel better if I were able to see and know where I am going. But I trust that God has a plan and I am surrendering to His plan.
I hope you have a lovely Memorial Day Weekend!