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Breast Cancer Awareness Month

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As a woman who endured breast cancer many moons ago, October or Pinktober becomes one of those pink, swashed in your face reminders of all that happened to us.  Maybe for you it doesn’t, but for those of us with a long history, it’s a stark reminder for an entire month.

I don’t often share that I endured breast cancer because my medical past isn’t obvious.  Well, maybe it’s obvious in certain situations, but for the most part, you’d never know if you met me on the street or in the grocery store unless I shared that bit of information with you.  I’m grateful for that now.  The bald tell-tale sign or the hairless eyebrows and lack of eyelashes aren’t there anymore.

It’s been a long time since I was diagnosed and I’m grateful to still be here to help others who walk this path.  If you want to read more, just type breast cancer in the search button on my blog and you will see that I’ve written about it over the years.  I learned much from my experience with breast cancer that I probably wouldn’t have if I hadn’t had the disease.  Endurance, strength, compassion, kindness, faith and connections have helped to enrich my life and my will to survive other obstacles that have arrived at my doorstep.  While I would have never chosen to endure this disease, I am grateful for surviving it and for the ample opportunities for insight and growth that came from it.

While it hasn’t come back with a vengeance, the threat continues as I live out the rest of my life.  However, most of the time it is pushed to the back of my mind where it belongs.  I am vigilant in my checkups and as any cancer survivor knows, I spend a few nervous days after they test my blood, waiting to see if my tumor markers have decided to go wacky and scare me.  In the past they have, which brought fear to the forefront again in my life, but luckily for me, they were false positives.

I can’t say that same experience happened for many friends and acquaintances of mine.  Sadly, many of them lost their battle to the disease as it metastasized to different areas in the body.  Survivors guilt after bonding with others saddens me.  The question of why I am spared and they are not, continues to be a mystery.  In honoring their sweet memories, I try to live the best life I can, for I know how quickly life can change.

I am an alumni of a club to which I never wished to belong.  But in this club, I have found warm, loving people who are united in ways that others may never fully understand.  To this day, I still help other women who are enduring breast cancer.  I know that for me, it helped when someone else understood the night time terror thoughts or the twinges of pain that we knew weren’t normal.  It helped to receive a sisterly embrace from someone who ‘got it’ and who willingly connected with me.  So I give back when I can.  I pass along the compassionate connections which were offered to me and greatly appreciated.

In honor of those who lost their battle to breast cancer, to those who are currently in the throes of cancer’s siege on their body and to those who, like me, are labeled survivors, I send up my prayers today.  My prayer is that we live on in the hearts of our loved ones and that someday, sooner rather than later, the cure will be given to all who need it.

God Bless.

Shine On!

xo

 

 

 

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Keep Calm and Fight Like A Girl!

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Keep Calm and Fight Like A Girl

I’m off to the doctor’s again for a check up and for anyone who’s been diagnosed with an illness that lingers, it can be a bit challenging mentally to Stay Calm and Carry On.  I’m just saying the truth for me.  Even though it’s been years since I was diagnosed with breast cancer and I’ve had my ovaries out for 10 years as well, I’m simply not calm, cool and collected when I have to be retested for anything.  There I said it ~ and for as much as I’m trying to be zen all the time, the creeping thought of ‘what if’ does sneak into my thoughts before the appointment.

And it’s not as if I feel like there’s anything wrong with me.  I don’t.  I also don’t even think about the appointment until the day before when the doctor’s office calls to confirm and then the hamster wheel creaks into motion.  You know the noise that the wheel makes when your hamster brain is running all night long, don’t you?  If you don’t, then I am so happy for you!  May you never know the sound for it’s annoying as heck!

My friend Jenn who lost her battle with breast cancer now almost 3 years ago (time flies by when I think about this as without having to check on it, I would have said 2 years), Click here to see my last post about her  and when I went to see my last post, I realized that it was one year ago today that I wrote about her.  Such a coincidence, huh?  Anyway, when I see the words, “fight like a girl” I always think of Jenn as she battled her cancer with grace, dignity and an inspirational courage which she spread with her spirit.  I am blessed to have had her special brand of motivation and inspiration in my life.

What a legacy to leave, isn’t it?  Touching the lives of many simply by being yourself.  It’s a great goal for me, one which I try to exceed every single day.  I awake every morning to the dawn of a new day and I pray that I can be helpful to someone who needs the Presents of Presence.

Shine On!

xo

Empower Yourself!

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My friend Susan over at The Savvy Sister was interviewed about her new book on TV!  Since we are in the throes of Pinktober also known as Breast Cancer Awareness Month, I thought I’d start the week off with her inspiring story and interview!  Please visit Susan’s blog ~ you will be inspired, empowered, loved and understood ~ and isn’t that all we ever wanted?

Click here for The Savvy Sister!

Shine On!

xo