I had a miraculous moment with Sam recently. I hadn’t been riding in awhile and when I got back in the saddle on Sam, I needed a few minutes to remember. You know what I mean? Literally, I had to get my frame of mind back on the horse. Pardon the puns, but they were so easy! LOL
I began my lesson as per usual, walking and guiding Sam around the paddock. Keeping my heels down, body upright and core tightened as I took my cues from my instructor Sasha. After a nice warmup, I could feel the tension in my hands still, but because it was chilly, I figured it was just me, which it was – me – still not trusting myself enough nor Sam. So Sasha gave me a surprise which I can only liken to opening a big unexpected present on Christmas morning – and you know how much I love Christmas morning!
Sasha took away all of my control. Putting Sam on a lead and taking away my reins, we rode in circles. Holding on to the saddle for dear life at first and getting my balance. I admit, I was scared. Then Sasha had me let go of one hand on the saddle. Deep breath in, I released my right hand and put it out beside me. I wobbled at first, still walking in circles and then Sasha commanded both hands. Deep breath in, exhaled and let go. We went through a series of exercises all the while I was riding without reins and feeling more and more comfortable in my saddle on Sam. He was a perfect gentleman and it clicked! Suddenly it was like – I got this! I’m utterly, wonderfully comfortable sitting on this sweet horse and I felt as if we were one! It was such a miraculous feeling of profound centeredness and tranquility and euphoria! Giggling with child-like wonder, I proudly sat up straight, fully comfortable in the saddle in that special moment with a big happy grin on my face as we bonded!
Sasha then informed me that we were going to trot a bit. My heart leapt at the exciting prospect, but a little anxiety crept in. I knew in my heart that I had full trust in both Sasha and Sam, so I agreed (not like Sasha would have let me back out though which is what I really like about her!)
Hands back on the saddle and Sam began to trot in a circle and with sheer delight, I was euphoric! In a big wave of gratitude, my soul was flying, bonded with Sam. As one, we trotted for the first time together in a circle! We slowed to walk again and I rested my hands on my thighs to show Sasha my newfound balance. Then we trotted again and I was on Cloud 9! A first for me in so many ways as a wave of healing engulfed me. Perhaps you won’t understand, but it was like a clearing for me in many ways, both personal and relative to my life. It was as if all the debris of past broken trust had been swept away and a newness full of hope and utterly centered healing trust was returned to me. Trust in myself, trust in Sam and Sasha and finally, trust in God and in the Universe!
Words can’t describe the feelings I’ve had since that moment and perhaps I sound silly to you, but to me it was a miraculous moment that I wanted to remember, so I am blogging about it.
After my lesson, Sam and I bonded for awhile. Nuzzling and talking with him afterwards was so lovely. It was as if we understood each other. I gave him treats as he snuggled into me. Even after I returned him to his stall, I was hesitant to leave him and I think he was enjoying me too as instead of going to eat, he stayed at the doorway, letting me know in no uncertain terms that he wanted to continue our time together. So, I hung around with him, talking and petting his velvet face with him affectionately snuggling into me and making me laugh with his antics!
When I left the barn, I walked to my car happily as I usually do, but there was a knowing in me that I haven’t felt in a long time. When I got to the gate of the farm to leave, my trusty horse friends were there to greet me. But even they were warmer with their welcomes. It was as if telepathically Sam had told them of our riding experience. I ended up spending extra time petting them too, reluctant to leave these amazing creatures whose love was filling my soul with peace and trust.
I remind myself that healing comes when we are ready to embrace it and that Divine Timing has all the answers. We just have to be open to the opportunities of letting go and letting God and the Universe to help us to heal. Mother Nature’s creatures innately help us when we trust and have faith.
Thanks for reading my post today. I know I was long-winded and maybe not even making sense to you, but to me, it was a profoundly important moment that I wanted to share.