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Come Join the Celebration!

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February 1st, 2002 was the date that I had my bilateral mastectomy due to my breast cancer diagnosis and the pathology report which read that after my lumpectomy, I still had breast cancer in my body.  It’s also the date that marks the fact that I finally took hold of my own health and my life and decided to prophylactically take the non-cancerous breast as well, much to my surgeon’s chagrin.  I can happily report to you, that I still stand by my decision as it was the right one for me.

There is so much I have learned in the last 11 years since that day that I walked into the OR by myself, sobbing after being taken away from hugging my supportive husband who still stands by my side.  In the wake of having had those breasts reconstructed with silicone implants twice since then and then after having one of those implants rupture last year, beginning multiple surgeries to create what I now have for breasts which is body tissue taken from other parts of my body to make new, real, soft fleshy breasts which are mine and not artificial, hard, painful implants which I had endured because I had no choice, I am celebrating!

Since my breast cancer diagnosis on New Year’s Eve of 2001, my life has changed so dramatically that words fail me in trying to explain how richer my life has become.  I have endured much suffering, but I have also reaped many blessings.  I am grateful for each and every day when I arise from my bed to greet the world.  I am thankful for life’s blessings, the big and small ones and I know firsthand the meaning of the preciousness of time.  I practice being present in my life ~ enjoying The Presents of Presence ~ meaning actually being in the moment and enjoying what that moment offers.  My intent to cast worry from my shoulders is an ongoing trial in my life, but I accept that it is a work in progress.

I know I am blessed with a loving family and much support in my life and I rejoice in the fact that I can continue to send out love on a daily basis through my blog, my FB page The Presents of Presence, my SendOutCards business and my actions.   I have struggled through the grief of losing my breasts, fighting the disease through multiple surgeries (more than 10 and counting), ACT (chemotherapy), radiation, the loss of my ovaries at age 35 (salpingo oophorectomy), multiple needles, shots, medications, tamoxifen, arimidex,  the loss of my hair, my self-esteem, my confidence as a woman, the sad passing of friends from the same disease and the mortal fear of reoccurrence.  This is not a pity party by any means, so please don’t mis-understand me.  It’s actually a celebration of triumph!

My mother-in-law texted me this morning, “Have an especially happy day!” and I knew exactly what she meant for I knew that she remembered ~ and I knew that she would be there with me celebrating this momentous event.  I’m still here!  I have no painful implants anymore!  I have come full circle today ~ from having my God-given breasts, to having them removed due to dis-ease, to having them reconstructed not once, but twice with implants, to having been miraculously restored and reconstructed with breasts again which are of my own flesh and blood.

I am not sure that if you haven’t experienced this phenomenon that you can imagine how incredible it is to be here 11 years later celebrating so many wonderful gifts that my life has brought to me.  It is with heartfelt tears of joy, of gratitude and of above all, love that I write to you today.  However, knowing that we all carry burdens while we endure our journey on this earth, I feel like this is OUR CELEBRATION TODAY!  So please indulge me as I invite you to celebrate love and life on the first of February (don’t forget to say Rabbit Rabbit)  as well as family, friends, miracles, faith, joy, laughter, tears, gratitude, blessings, health, compassion, friendship…I could go on and on!

Celebrate Today my friends…Yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future…

Today is a gift, that’s why we call it the Present!

May The Presents of Presence

Be with You Every Day!

Shine On!

xo

Angelic Wings Embrace…

“We are, each of us angels with only one wing,

and we can only fly by embracing one another.” -Luciano de Crescenzo

I want to thank you all for everything  ~ I wanted to find the right card from my SendOutCards catalog to post today ~ one that would perfectly describe how I’m feeling since my last post and I am hoping that you feel the same way I do ~ that this one says it all.

To all of you who took a moment to think of me, to vibe, to Reiki, to pray, to read, to bless, to comment, to call, to write and to visit…my heartfelt gratitude goes out to you as words cannot accurately describe the tingling of change I’m feeling…and I know that its power is immeasurable and I’m confident that with baby steps, I am turning the corner…

It’s a good lesson to learn my friends ~ yet another one in my life that I’ve been given before and tried to reject.  So perhaps that’s what this post is all about ~

We are all connected.

Together we can make Miracles.

We are not meant to do it all alone.

Even the strongest oak needs help.

Separately, we can only walk…

Embracing each other allows us to fly!

So let’s soar together my friends, each and every day. 

Allow me to be your ‘wing gal’ and together we share the enthusiasm for life’s flight!

My heartfelt gratitude to you ~

for being My Wings.

Shine and Soar On!

xo

Find Your Joy Today!

Can life get any better?

For me, it’s the little things in life that I adore…ice cream, giggles, hugs and kisses, spending time with my family, holding hands, a smile, pretty clouds, sunshine on my face, puppy kisses, raindrops on roses, whiskers on kittens ~ get my drift?  I’m easy to make happy because I enjoy being happy.

Life is full of moments that we can enjoy, but sometimes you have to look for them as they’re not as obvious as the card above shows.  Happiness is contagious I think.  When I look at the girl above, I know that great happy feeling of really enjoying an ice cream cone and I can feel happy even though I’m not eating ice cream at the moment.  Can you?

“You get what you expect,’ is my own quote which I just made up and I think it’s apropos for today’s post.  Prove me right or wrong today (ok, please prove me right!) and expect happiness today, expect miracles, expect smiles, laughter and joy and let me know how your day goes with that sentiment in mind!

Happiness is yours when you’re ready for it ~

Just look around today & you’ll find it in the most peculiar ways! 

What brings you happiness? 

What are a few of your favorite things?

Happy Thursday to YOU!

xo

P.S.  And meet me for an ice cream at 4pm!

Before the Miracle…

Don’t Leave Before the Miracle…

Stick around. It could be 2 days or 40 days

before change occurs in you. Everyone is different.

So I was telling you about my miracle and before I do go into my surgical retreat for about a week, I thought I’d stay on this topic of Miracles.  For me, everyday is miraculous and I am so grateful for all of the blessings that I’ve enjoyed in my life that I figure I can count everyday as a Miracle.

Beyond that, there’s a sense of incredulity that comes with having this series of serendipitous moments for the past few weeks and I find that instead of doubting how in the world they’ve manifested, I’ve not even had that thought ~ I’ve only gone with the flow and felt that momentum of joy that seems to come bubbling up inside of me every time  I stop to be thankful.  I feel like I have the magic touch inside of me and I only continue to wish myself and others well.  Not that I didn’t do that before, because I did!  But now it seems that as I bravely walk through my day, my day lines up before me as if someone rolled out the red carpet.

Honestly, I have been frustrated, in pain and saddened like so many others who have endured this breast cancer journey and I wanted to tell my story so that others know that it’s only a matter of time before your Miracle arrives.  Mine took awhile, but I am so blessed, so grateful that is has come, that all time has ceased to be important.

What is important is what has always been important to me…Love and my loving family.

We’ve all heard concentrate on the good and it grows…

So concentrate on Miracles…no need to plan how or when they will arrive…

Miracles arrive and that’s all you need to know.

Don’t Leave Before Your Miracle…

It’s coming!

xo