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Come Join the Celebration!

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Congratulations!

February 1st, 2002 was the date that I had my bilateral mastectomy due to my breast cancer diagnosis and the pathology report which read that after my lumpectomy, I still had breast cancer in my body.  It’s also the date that marks the fact that I finally took hold of my own health and my life and decided to prophylactically take the non-cancerous breast as well, much to my surgeon’s chagrin.  I can happily report to you, that I still stand by my decision as it was the right one for me.

There is so much I have learned in the last 11 years since that day that I walked into the OR by myself, sobbing after being taken away from hugging my supportive husband who still stands by my side.  In the wake of having had those breasts reconstructed with silicone implants twice since then and then after having one of those implants rupture last year, beginning multiple surgeries to create what I now have for breasts which is body tissue taken from other parts of my body to make new, real, soft fleshy breasts which are mine and not artificial, hard, painful implants which I had endured because I had no choice, I am celebrating!

Since my breast cancer diagnosis on New Year’s Eve of 2001, my life has changed so dramatically that words fail me in trying to explain how richer my life has become.  I have endured much suffering, but I have also reaped many blessings.  I am grateful for each and every day when I arise from my bed to greet the world.  I am thankful for life’s blessings, the big and small ones and I know firsthand the meaning of the preciousness of time.  I practice being present in my life ~ enjoying The Presents of Presence ~ meaning actually being in the moment and enjoying what that moment offers.  My intent to cast worry from my shoulders is an ongoing trial in my life, but I accept that it is a work in progress.

I know I am blessed with a loving family and much support in my life and I rejoice in the fact that I can continue to send out love on a daily basis through my blog, my FB page The Presents of Presence, my SendOutCards business and my actions.   I have struggled through the grief of losing my breasts, fighting the disease through multiple surgeries (more than 10 and counting), ACT (chemotherapy), radiation, the loss of my ovaries at age 35 (salpingo oophorectomy), multiple needles, shots, medications, tamoxifen, arimidex,  the loss of my hair, my self-esteem, my confidence as a woman, the sad passing of friends from the same disease and the mortal fear of reoccurrence.  This is not a pity party by any means, so please don’t mis-understand me.  It’s actually a celebration of triumph!

My mother-in-law texted me this morning, “Have an especially happy day!” and I knew exactly what she meant for I knew that she remembered ~ and I knew that she would be there with me celebrating this momentous event.  I’m still here!  I have no painful implants anymore!  I have come full circle today ~ from having my God-given breasts, to having them removed due to dis-ease, to having them reconstructed not once, but twice with implants, to having been miraculously restored and reconstructed with breasts again which are of my own flesh and blood.

I am not sure that if you haven’t experienced this phenomenon that you can imagine how incredible it is to be here 11 years later celebrating so many wonderful gifts that my life has brought to me.  It is with heartfelt tears of joy, of gratitude and of above all, love that I write to you today.  However, knowing that we all carry burdens while we endure our journey on this earth, I feel like this is OUR CELEBRATION TODAY!  So please indulge me as I invite you to celebrate love and life on the first of February (don’t forget to say Rabbit Rabbit)  as well as family, friends, miracles, faith, joy, laughter, tears, gratitude, blessings, health, compassion, friendship…I could go on and on!

Celebrate Today my friends…Yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future…

Today is a gift, that’s why we call it the Present!

May The Presents of Presence

Be with You Every Day!

Shine On!

xo

This is Your Life…

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Daily Prompt: This Is Your Life

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/01/11/daily-prompt-your-life/

If you could read a book containing all that has happened

and will ever happen in your life, would you?

If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover. 

I thought perhaps I’d try one of the daily prompts today.  I started following them awhile back but I never acted upon them.  However, today’s piqued my interest enough to follow through so here I am!

If I could read a book about my life, I most certainly would read it cover to cover.  Through my love of reading all types of books, but especially autobiographies, this would be my genre and therefore a resounding YES as the answer to today’s question.  I love to learn about others and listen to their stories about their lives so I would definitely read my own.  I think it would be fun!

As for the card above, (it’s from SendOutCards  ~ click here for more info).  I imagine that this would be the cover of my book about my life ~ and the title of it.  What do you think? 🙂

I’d love to hear from you!  So…please answer….

1. If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you?  If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.

2.  Why or why not?

3.  What do you imagine it would be titled?

Thanks for sharing!

TGIF!

Shine On!

xo

 

Be the Change…

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be the change you wish to see in the world ~ gandhi

Did you get a chance to see The Shift that I wrote about here?  What did you think of it?  Did you enjoy it?  Did you feel delicious afterwards?  Were you inspired?  I felt all of the above plus I felt such an amazing connection that I want to lead the parade to be the change we wish to see in the world!  Want to join me?

Change is a great word ~ albeit a scary one to many as it involves the unknown which many times strikes fear in the hearts of those not ready to go with the flow.  My nature was to fear the unknown, but lately I’ve been feeling the urge to go with the flow and not worry so much about things.  Call it a bit of peace?  A bit of knowing?  A bit of feeling more confident by trusting in God/Universe/Angels/Me.

I’m not saying that I’m completely over worry or fear, but I’m sure as heck trying!  You see, I want inner peace and I want you all to enjoy it as well.  That delish feeling of being present and at peace!  Since I got a taste of it last week, it’s like having a small taste of  the most decadent chocolate (for a chocolate lover like me) and then knowing that the whole cake is there whenever I want it (but having to watch my waistline so I have to be careful not to eat it all at once without having any left!)  The kid in me wants to gobble it all down and hope for more.

Wait!!  I can conceivably gobble it all down, enjoy it abundantly and know that there’s more delicious chocolate cake to enjoy!

Huh?  You might be thinking…what is this post about?  To what is she referring?  Has she gone off her diet or her rocker?

Why YES ~ I am off the diet of fear!  I am off the diet of feeling afraid of change…I am off the diet of feeling starved for the delicious feeling of peace and presence!  Are you?

I spoke with my friend AAngel yesterday who talks about her job incessantly.  Whenever we chat on the phone, it is always about her job and how she has this deal and that deal that must be closed by this timeline and she’s always crazy busy, doing 2 things at once.  She means well, but I know when we get on the phone, she’ll be multi-tasking, sending emails while I’m talking etc.  Yesterday I mentioned that if she dislikes her job so much that she should find a new one.  Perhaps it’s time for a change?  There are plenty of jobs out there for her amazing skills and she could find one that makes her feel less-harried and more fulfilled.  I mentioned The Shift to her and she quickly dismissed it saying that she didn’t have 2 hours to sit and watch a movie because there was so much to do ~ work, being a mom, a wife, and needing to make money…and I understood as I’ve been in her shoes…but no more!

My life circumstances haven’t changed from the outside ~ no windfalls or lottery wins (yet!), but inside, there’s been the shift and it’s curious to me how it’s opened up a place of peace in my heart, my soul, myself.  This morning I awoke with my entire insides vibrating like the wings of a hummingbird with different thoughts of possibility!  I feel inspired today, like anything is possible and I’m loving it!  So please be patient with me if my post were a bit disjointed.  I’m having trouble focusing as there are so many wonderful possibilities for today!

Come SHIFT with me to the DELICIOUS side

of possibility, of change and of inner/outer peaceful presence! 

The infinite chocolate cake is decadent! 🙂

Shine On!

xo

The Shift to Feeling Delicious!

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Through synchronicity last week, Hay House delivered to my inbox, the opportunity to download The Shift by Dr. Wayne Dyer for the incredibly low price of $1.99 .  Being the bargain shopper that I am, I immediately checked out the preview footage and being intrigued, I dug out my credit card to get the 2 hour movie to stream to my computer.  Now the next hurdle was how, as a busy Mom, wife and business owner, was I going to carve out 2 hours to watch it?  However, last Friday, I finally sat down to watch the movie…and it changed my life.

Usually I am not speechless when it comes to my blog (or to anything for that matter), but I have been unable to find the words to explain The Shift except to say that when the movie was finished, I laid down on my couch, closed my eyes for a few moments to take in the experience and felt a blissful peace that I hadn’t felt in years.  The words remarkable, stunning and life-changing come to mind ~ but I think the best is ~ I felt DELICIOUS!

Delicious?  Did she just write delicious?  That’s how food tastes, it’s not a feeling!

I know, I know…but have you ever felt delicious?  It’s a feeling I had never experienced until now and quite frankly, it’s one that I won’t forget in the near future.  Words escape me in explaining it more…but it was a calm, an inner healing, a feeling of complete happiness in my soul that I experienced and I’ve been able to call up that feeling for the last few days when I’ve gotten quiet and asked to feel it again.

I wanted to share it with you because it’s a new year and this was a new experience for me, one that I think you’ll enjoy, appreciate and one that may change your life for the better as it’s done to mine.  Whether you are a man or woman, this profound movie will easily touch you.  You don’t need to be an enlightened being to ‘get it’ nor does being an enlightened being make the move boring to you either…it’s one for all ages, for all people and for myself, it’s a keeper.

I’ve been quiet the last few days because I’ve been trying to figure out how I could tell you what ‘I feel delicious’ means…but I’ve decided that I’m just putting it out there for you to taste and see the delicious experience that The Shift brings.  Be open, let it gently wash over you and then let me know what you think!

Do you want to feel DELICIOUS too?

Shine On and Shift!

xo

Want to buy the book?  Or buy the movie?  Just click  here!

There are others talking about it too!  Check out the blogs below!

http://martinlumsden.wordpress.com/2012/12/09/secret-messages/

http://thiswitchsheart.wordpress.com/2013/01/01/the-shift-with-dr-wayne-dyer/

Today is Your Day to Twinkle Sparkle Glow and Shine

Today is Your Day to Twinkle Sparkle Glow Shine

Officially it’s January 1st, 2013, and with the dawn, a new year is heralded in today and officially closes the door on 2012….at least in my book.  I awoke this morning with the little ditty of Rabbit Rabbit in my head (and out my mouth) before my first sip of coffee.  I’m not taking any chances on the first day of the month AND new year!  Are you scratching your head and wondering why?  Here’s the answer!  https://misifusa.wordpress.com/2012/09/01/rabbit-rabbit/

In the meantime, I thought this was a great card to begin the new year with ~ Don’t you love the optimism of this card ~ it has the ability to make you smile and to increase your desire to continue to SHINE ON!  This is yet another year to shine for all of us!  Are you ready?  On your mark, get set and let’s Twinkle Sparkle Glow and Shine On this year!

It’s only a matter of attitude ~ a shift if you will ~ and like any habit, it’s one that you can acquire easily without much extra effort…you just have to remember that you are a shining star.  That’s it!

You shine on with your attitude, your words, your expressions and by being yourself!  Even the brightest stars may have days when we feel less than sparkly, but our light is always shining in our souls!  I would love to see us all twinkling, sparkling, glowing and shining this year!  Imagine if as a connected community we allowed our inner lights to blossom and ignite the lights in others!  We could be a fireball of enthusiastic bloggers who connect like the amazing twinkly lights of the New Year’s Ball in Times Square!  Imagine the world cheering us on as we descend next New Year’s Eve on a year filled with every type of shining moment imaginable!  Imagine the power of a community filled with love, light and individuals who’ve come together with enthusiasm, optimism and in inspiration!

So please join me this year as we travel on our Journey of Endurance ~

Igniting our inner stars to

Twinkle,

Sparkle,

Glow

and Shine On! 

Happy 2013!

xo

Requesting the Power of Prayer

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May the power of prayer comfort and lift your burdens.

I, myself, believe in the power of prayer.  I also believe in the Power of Positive Thinking.  I have friends who ‘vibe’ for me as they are not inclined to call it prayer, but more akin to sending powerful, positive, healing vibrations to me.  Believe me, I accept any and all good thoughts, healing feelings, powerful prayers etc. and I am blessed to say that I have enjoyed the fruits of their Reiki, their loving energy and their healing messages.

So when I ask today for a bit of help from you all, I hope you won’t mind taking a moment of your time to think of me.  You see, it’s been a really hard year for me.  Perhaps I’m throwing a bit of a pity party this morning ~ because in reality, there’s nobody who is always 100% happy and inspirational 100% of the time ~ not even me, although I do try to be ~ I try with all of my heart and being to be.

But this morning, I’m not feeling it and although I debated whether to write this post, I think that it’s only fair to show that I’m a real person who gets down like everyone else, but who, I hope, inspires you all by getting back up everyday and moving forward ~ even if it’s only a baby step forward.  I try to look at the sunshine through the clouds, remember that the rain falls to feed the beautiful flowers (and to make rainbows) and that the age old mantra of what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger makes me a 2 ton indestructable ox today. 🙂

My body is tired and needs extra care now after this surgery.  It seems that after 4 this year alone, it’s just not bouncing back the way it ought to and it’s having some difficulties in healing as I found out from my surgeon’s visit yesterday.  I need my body to heal so that I can continue on with Christmas as it’s only a week away and I’m floundering under this new burden.  Sometimes, we all need a bit of help and for some of us, it’s more difficult to ask for than it is to give.  So I’m learning…and I”m asking…and I have faith that I’ll receive.

I know we’re cyberly connected ~ that’s the beauty of blogs ~ so my request is simple…Please take a moment and send me a healing thought, message, vibe, prayer, Reiki ~ whatever you choose.  I need a little extra strength today and I’m counting on you.  I’m sending blessings out to the Universe with every post and especially this one so if you would please send back some love, I’d be most appreciative.  I started counting my blessings and not my troubles this morning in hopes of turning this situation around, but I feel like I could use a bit of back up ~ hence my post and request.

I believe we are a community ~ I believe that each of us has the power to change lives and together ~ well, together we can make miracles.  I’m not asking for a miracle, just a little healing.  I’m not dying any faster than anyone else ~ but I could sure use some powerful vibes to heal me.  So, if you are inclined, I’d be grateful to you today.

Hugs to all of you ~ you make my heart sing with your words, your blogs and your energies!

Shine On my friends…Shine On!

Thank you!

xo

Looking for a New Normal…Continued…

Welcome to A New Normal and Loving Yourself!

Welcome to A New Normal and Loving Yourself!

When disaster strikes, be it a hurricane, tornado, tsunami, job loss, illness, addiction, depression, accident, disfigurement, death, divorce…the aftermath is always about finding a new normal.  That’s it in a nutshell as they say.  You need to find a new normal and keep living ~ taking baby steps forward in life.  And I don’t say it’s easy to do because I wouldn’t lie to you, but I will tell you that it is do-able because there are people who have done it before you…and there will be those who will come after you who will triumph as well.

Right now, it’s you who I’m thinking of…you, who in this changing world, has to change as well whether you want to or not, whether you like it or not, because it’s required in order to continue to live.

They say water finds it own level…so like water, you will find your own level, your new normal…but it takes practice, it takes courage, it takes trust and endurance.  Sometimes it takes asking for and being open to receiving help ~ having a hand to hold as you endure this journey of life.  We are all connected here…if you look long enough and not give up, you’ll find a trust-worthy person to help you.  But you must be willing to help yourself…you must take that first step…and watch out my dears…it’s a LULU!  It’s going to change your life for the better! 🙂

Because once you’ve taken that first decided step towards helping yourself, whatever the situation is, you open yourself up for change to occur.  Most people shy away from change, if not run like hell from it.  It’s most likely human nature as the unknown strikes fear in many of us.  However, that’s when the most growth occurs and when that golden ring that you’ve been reaching for, finally comes into grasp!  It’s taking that chance into the unknown that leads to the next step for the better!

The key to all of it ~ the absolute key to making the new normal easier to live,

to accept and to transition to ~ is one simple ingredient.

Love yourself.

Whew…right?  You thought it was going to be hard.  But love yourself…heck that’s easy, isn’t it?  Perhaps you’re thinking that I”m off my rocker…well, you might be right 🙂  but certainly, if you take a moment, quietly, calmly when you have a few minutes to yourself with no distractions…slowly, repeat aloud in a mirror to yourself, “I love you” 3 times and notice how it makes you feel.

How do you feel?  In the depths of your soul, how did stating, “I LOVE YOU” to yourself make you feel?

Truly, I hope that it made you feel elated, that you hugged yourself and smiled.  I hope that repeating that powerful statement gave you a warm fuzzy feeling right down to your core!  I hope that you feel comfortable saying it and that you can repeat it 3 times a day everyday!  Because as Robert Schuller of the Crystal Cathedral used to say, “God loves you and so do I.”

On the flip side, if saying “I love you,” aloud to yourself made you feel anything else, then we have some work to do so that you can embrace the new normal!  You think that you love yourself, but when you have to actually say it in a mirror and watch your face as you repeat this powerful statement, sometimes uncomfortable feelings come up.  For me, I know that I shy away from saying it to myself because I feel unworthy, I don’t feel like I’m enough and I feel uncomfortable, like I’m being selfish or egotistical.  It’s distracting to hear myself say those words and yet, I say and mean them all the time to my family and friends.  But loving myself ~ well, that’s been a tough one for me.  What’s helped me is an author whom I’ve talked about before named Louise Hay.  Below is Louise Hay’s Love Yourself, Heal Your Life Workbook.  A simple, no nonsense way of doing just that ~ healing your life ~ Louise gives step by step exercises which are easy to understand, for anyone needing a new normal ~ for those who want a new chapter in their lives ~ and for you who wants a brighter day!

Just Love Yourself…and if you don’t know how…then pick up Louise’s book for yourself!
Make it your own holiday gift ~ it’s a keeper ~ a life changer ~ and you deserve it!

Click on the picture to read all about it!

What about you?  How do you feel about yourself?  Do you love you?

Let’s start there!

Shine On!

xo

Sharing Love and Gratitude

No fancy words or platitude

can beat the simple attitude

of sharing love and gratitude. -Cait Stanley

I just love this card ~ even more, I love the quote.  You know, Thanksgiving is around the corner ~ a day of sharing love and gratitude with family, friends and others.  Have you counted your blessings lately?  Truly, I wish that we could keep the attitude of gratitude going all the year through instead of just concentrated during the holidays.

I teach people to be thankful, to be grateful, to enjoy blessings in their lives & to send out love.

Imagine if not just at Thanksgiving were we to get together with our friends and family ~ bowing our heads in thanksgiving, blessing the abundance we’ve been given and celebrating the feeling that love, friendship and blessings are in the air and all around us.

Wouldn’t it be nice?

Well, you can…you can do it for 30 days if you wish!

There’s an easy, inexpensive way to send a card a day in gratitude through SendOutCards.  You can keep Thanksgiving going this year ~ for a full 30 days with the Gratitude Challenge!  It’s designed to make it easy for you to send a card a day to tell someone how you feel ~ how grateful you are for them in your life!  You can upload pictures into the card and even add a QR Code to allow your recipient to watch your own video!

Isn’t $1 a day worth it to send a smile through a heartfelt card to celebrate your relationships?

A friend, a loved one, a family member, an old lost relationship ~

Yes, it is that simple…just click on the link below to see what it’s all about…

Take Day One for Free ~ My Treat!

30 Day Gratitude Challenge

xo

50 Shades of Gratitude

I saw this card and thought of dear Mother Nature who has bestowed so many experiences on our Jersey Shore lately.  I thought you might like the giggle of this card because it reminded me of the snowman my sons made yesterday.  It also reminded me of the gift of gratefulness that she has given to us ~ be thankful that we’re here, we’re healthy and we’re alive ~ and for everything else!  Do you practice gratitude everyday?  It’s a must!

Perhaps you need a bit of help with it?  Well, I’ve been holding out on you with a post that I knew would come in the right time.  I think today’s the perfect opportunity to reblog one of my favorite blogger’s posts from World Gratitude Day which was September 21st.  Paul’s wonderful gratitude quotes and his blog will help you to find gratefulness wherever you roam.  Take a moment to click on his link on this Thank God it’s Friday!

50 Shades of Gratitude.

So please enjoy and be grateful!

Thank you Paul Mark Sutherland at GYA Today!

xo