The Layers of Now
Being present is what I yearn to be, although like many others, I teeter-totter in the realm of past rememberings or anticipating future fears of what’s to come. It’s a fine line between the past, the present and the future. One sharp word can trigger a memory and I’m conjuring up past wounds, beliefs and heartbreak. One kind word and I’m breathing deeply in the present moment, finding my center of peace. One anxious word and I’m fearing the uncharted territory of the future.
So where does one go?
Into The Layers of Now!
The Layers of Now is how I’ve found peace within me during chaotic times of trouble which seem to gather around me lately like thunderclouds sweeping in during a summer storm. I don’t know if I can explain what I’m doing so that it will make sense to you, but I will try.
Simply put, I consciously try with all of my might,
to layer my present moment of presence.
If I need to cha cha into the past, I take a few steps back, rock forward to the present moment and repeat as necessary until the dance becomes obscured by the smile on my face as the music trills in my head, because I have changed my tune. I drop what wounds I held onto as they don’t serve me anymore. I allow the knowledge that we are all here together, doing the best we can to remind me that I am not without mistakes either. I forgive the past, remember what I have endured and face the present with peace in my heart.
If I need to face the future, I step up, then rock back to the present and repeat as necessary. Never actually staying in the future for it is certainly uncertain at this point, but also, never losing sight of the solidity of the present moment. Thus I can grow my presents of presence.
Then, when I need to feel present in all the glory or chaos that is this very moment, I step to the side, into observer mode, facing my fears, my angst, euphoria and sadness with the magnitude of a maestro layering the chorus of past/present/future into a hit song that encompasses it all! I stand by, not engaging, but simply looking with gratitude for all the facets of my life, no matter where they may be, past, present, future, happy, sad, uncertain and I just envelope them in my heart as the layers of now and rejoice, for I am here to experience and connect each and every emotion and feeling.
I am here,
to witness my life as it is right now with gratitude.
I am here,
to remember how far I have come from my past with gratitude.
I am here,
to open my heart, mind and soul,
to welcome with arms outstretched,
the unseen experiences that may come my way on my future path.
All at the same time.
Connecting…The Layers of Now.