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Communal Solstice

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In this photo, you can see one fire lantern has been released and is the floating orb. A red one and three others await liftoff! I’m not sure what I captured on the left (shooting star?) I wish my phone camera could have captured greater detail because it was fabulous to watch with the naked eye! ♥

I felt the darkness of the Solstice especially this year.  Perhaps due to the changes in my life or due to the healing that has been surrounding me and integrating inside of me.  I feel like it may be a communal  change of enlightenment.  Do you feel it too?

I was grateful to have been invited to a Solstice Ceremony.  What a magical experience!  The energy was fabulous as we all gathered together under the stars on the beach.  A ceremonial fire was built in a fire pit, under the stars while we were serenaded by the waves of the ocean gently lapping rhythmically to the shoreline.  Unbeknownst to us, there were others who were not in our group, but on the beach, closer to the shoreline, setting off those fire lanterns to the sky.   What an added bonus to watch as they gently lifted up and over the ocean!  It truly was beautiful.  Even the winds died down and the air was not frigid during the ceremony.

Letting go of what doesn’t serve me anymore and allowing the fire to help me to release was an amazing feeling.  Then, we each also prayed and sent out our intentions for the new year.  I had never experienced such a ceremony before and honestly I was hesitant to attend, but I am so grateful that I did!  It seems as if God and the Universe are bringing healing in all sorts of ways to me and I am ever so grateful!

As the longest night of the year, the Solstice reminded me to continue to shine our heartlights and to honor the darkness for that’s when we see the light best.  I am looking forward to celebrating Christmas Day with my children this year and even though I will attend Mass alone on Christmas Eve, (because they will be with their dad), I feel at peace for the first time in a long while.

I hope you have a lovely time of year, whatever you are planning.  May peace and love be with you always!

Shine On!

xo

 

Sam and Me

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This is Sam and me!

Charlie’s foot is bothering him so now I’m riding Sam who is even bigger than Charlie, but he’s a smoother ride and starts out our lesson walking very slowly.  Charlie on the other hand is a bit more spirited out of the gate and harder to balance on so changing to Sam whose gait is smoother was a good change for now.  I am hoping Charlie heals soon though because he has a special place in my heart.

As I was grooming Sam, he sensed my hesitation in cleaning a little bit of mud off of his face.  He stood patiently still as I groomed his body before riding.  But when I got to his face, he gave me such a look that it stopped me in my tracks.  I’m short, 5″2′ tall so he’s really big to me.  With every brush, I showed it to him before I groomed him.  I thought it was only fair that he should know what I was doing.  But being a seasoned veteran of lessons and of newbies like me, it didn’t faze him in the least.  Until I got to his face.

I was talking with him and commenting how he had a bit of mud on his face.  At one point, he turned to face me and stared hard into my face.  Those big eyes (you know they are the size of golf balls!) looked at me, but instead of seeing the full brown eye, I saw part of the whites of his eyes as he looked at me.  I was tentative and a little scared for some reason.  He’s so big that I got frightened even though he wasn’t doing anything but looking at me from the side.  I felt a pulse of insecurity which was on my part and stepped back.  Even as I write this, I only know that it was a significant moment because my fear was there.  Fear of what I’ve asked myself,  but there’s been so significant response.  Maybe I thought he was going to bite me?  I don’t know for sure because I’ve been told he’s not a biter.  But I didn’t know that then.

So I stepped back and asked one of the girls nearby to help me get the mud off of his face.  She calmly came over and brushed him, talking with him as I had done.  When she was finished, he seemed to look at me as if to say, Man up little girl and face your fears because I’m not scary.

I walked into the paddock to mount him and then we started to walk, but he stopped and wouldn’t move.  It was like he was testing me, not in a belligerent way, but in a have courage, do what we’re supposed to do and tell me what you want.  It took a good few minutes of him standing stoically before he began to walk (after my trainer clucked to him multiple times and I used my legs to urge him to begin walking).  Then he finally started.

Balancing on a horse was to me like playing the game Twister.  Reins at a certain height, put your heels down, keep your legs relaxed and not on his shoulders, sit up straight, hold in your core, but stay relaxed!  Yikes!  It’s hard work!  I tried (again!) the 2 point position that is the precursor to posting, but I was failing miserably even though Sam was so patient and gentle.  So my trainer took me off Sam and rode him, showing me what I wasn’t getting on my own.  What a difference that made!!

When I got back on Sam, because I could actually SEE what she meant, I was so much more comfortable and it showed!  I was able to keep the 2 point position correctly and for longer even though my ab muscles were getting a workout.  Sam, true to form, flowed with my learning curve, staying the course and making it easier for me to balance and concentrate on my form.

At the end of the lesson, for which once I finally was understanding the whole form thing, I begged to have another 1/2 hour because I felt in the zone!  But there was another rider’s lesson after me.  So when I dismounted, Sam and I had a few minutes alone while I waited for the next rider to come into the paddock.

I stood by Sam’s head and talked with him as we waited.  I’m probably being silly here, but the tears are flowing as I type.  Maybe I’m overly sensitive, but as I was thanking him for all that we’d accomplished today, he nestled his head onto my shoulder and into my neck so softly as if to comfort me and say See, we’ve got this you and me.  We’re a team and you can trust me and yourself.  He gazed into my eyes and I melted with love for him, bravely kissing his face and petting him with so much appreciation and love.  He nuzzled me again, rubbing his face onto mine as I cooed to him.  It was such a magical moment for me.  Truly.  What I’m writing sounds so hollow because it was so much more.  It was as if there were a breakthrough in healing for me and Sam helped me so much.

When the next rider came to take Sam, I kissed him good bye and thanked him.  As I passed some people who had been watching, they said they didn’t know Sam was such an affectionate horse.  I smiled and nodded because I had tears in my eyes, tears of healing and gratitude for my horse angel Sam.

Shine On!

xo

Tapestry of You

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We are layered beings, full of textures, emotions, experiences and hues that span the rainbow.  At any given moment, we are not just black and white, but every color in between as life swirls through us.

We are musical too – sometimes at an allegro speed, we pulse through the chords of life, rushing, fleeing, jumping through hoops enthusiastically.  At others, we are legato, smoothly playing without interruption, calm and happy.  Or at others, we are lento, slowly moving through life.

Our heartlights shine on throughout our life journey – blinking rhythmically in tandem with our musicality and hues, sometimes pulsing urgently like a beacon in need of help, at others, simply dimmed when we are weakened and sad.  But still, always, the effervescent heartlight remains glowing deep within us in a mass of light and love.

Humanity flows through us as we connect soul to soul with others.  Shedding the superficiality and growing deeply within us and filling the chasm that disappointments often rift in our minds.  We become more loving towards others and ourselves.  We rebuild the broken pieces of our lives with gold as the Japanese do when they  practice Kintsugi.  I find it a beautiful, healing notion of how to culminate our life experiences as we continually strive to live on Earth and recognize our divinity – our soul beauty!

Translated to “golden joinery,” Kintsugi (or Kintsukuroi, which means “golden repair”) is the centuries-old Japanese art of fixing broken pottery with a special lacquer dusted with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. Beautiful seams of gold glint in the cracks of ceramic ware, giving a unique appearance to the piece.

This repair method celebrates each artifact’s unique history by emphasizing its fractures and breaks instead of hiding or disguising them. Kintsugi often makes the repaired piece even more beautiful than the original, revitalizing it with new life.

It’s the Tapestry of You, unique and beautiful you which I celebrate and salute today.  Please join me in celebrating each of our golden souls each and every day!

Shine On!

xo

P.S.  My heartfelt gratitude to Joanna from whom I was inspired to write this post today. Please visit Joanna’s post here – The Patchwork Soul.

 

Practicing Gratitude For What We Receive

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Let’s be honest.  Sometimes we receive fabulous experiences and synchronicities that make us giddy with happiness and excitement.  We twirl around in glee for the wonder of it all and walk around on the proverbial Cloud 9 in joy, thanking God and the Universe and everyone else for the good news.

However, sometimes we have experiences that we don’t want and we can’t believe that God or the Universe have delivered this strife to our door.  We don’t want to be thankful or gracious about the upsetting news or situation or relationship.  We don’t want to hold our hands out with a ready heart to receive disappointment or grief or burdens.  We want to to live happy go lucky lives and be done with the horrors we’ve endured.  Do you feel that way sometimes?

Because I honestly do.

So what other choice do we have?  We have to receive the blows as they come and deal with them in the best way we can.  Getting on our knees is one plan, full of prayers.  Getting help by reaching out to others is another good idea.  Going through the process and not hiding behind blinders is probably good advice as well for we can ignore situations, but until there’s a resolution, the body, mind, and soul suffer.  And I know, sometimes there’s no resolution.  Bad things happen to good people.  We suffer at the hands of others and circumstances at times.  We can feel like we endure more than our share of illness, of disconnections and of failed relationships.  We strive to do what’s right in all situations, but we’re human and we make mistakes.  We can’t have it always perfect all the time.  It’s just not what life school is all about here on Earth.

A friend and I were talking on the phone the other day and admiring each other’s strengths.  I flippantly said, God only gives you what you can handle right?  in an effort to connect with this person who was also having a hard time these days.  Sometimes I think He thinks I’m cement!  I said.   She replied, Then I’m puddy! and because I liked puddy better, I agreed, We’re both puddy!  We laughed, enjoyed the camaraderie of the moment and when we hung up the phone, there was a kinship there that remained between us.

When we go through hard times, we learn about life, about people and about ourselves.  We expand our knowledge, our spirituality and our ability to help others who are hurting as well.  Our experiences, when we share them, become a springboard for healing others and for healing ourselves.  We inspire others by how we deal with hardship.  We admire others for how they have conquered the ugly parts of life with grace and dignity.  We grow our faith and our connections with love when we heal ourselves and others.  We find the springboard to something positive when we dig ourselves out of the hole of adversity.  Hope becomes key.  Love becomes the answer.  Patience increases and a centered soul becomes the strength in which we shine our heartlights.

Shine On!

xo

 

Bonding With Charlie

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A loving bond is forming with Charlie.

My third horseback riding lesson and I’m hooked on horses!  Between Sam and Charlie, I can’t choose between them although I will say that even though Sam is bigger, I think he’s a bit easier to ride because he’s, dare I say it?, not as energetic as Charlie.  Charlie, on the other hand, has a faster gait so I have to keep my balance more in check, but that’s how you learn to ride, right?

I likened it to gymnastics at my last lesson because it’s all about balance in the saddle.  I am learning to ride English which means there’s no horn to hold onto on the saddle.  In most movies, I saw the horn and thought of it as a safety handle to keep me in the saddle.  Guess that’s not going to happen for me.  LOL

Oh, so much to learn and to experience!  Sigh…and big, wide grin.

So grateful for the healing of horses!

Enjoy your day dear friends!  Anyone else horseback riding?

Shine On!

xo

 

 

Life Is Not For The Faint Of Heart

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Life is not for the faint of heart these days.  Read the newspapers, watch the news, talk with friends or strangers and you hear some incredible stories.  Unfathomable incidents that have occurred and you wonder what in the world is going on today.

Violence, abuse, horrifying natural and unnatural events continue these days and it’s a wonder how we keep going.  Perhaps some cover their eyes and ears to the darkness, choosing to not be a part of it or even see it.  I know that for me, at times, this incessant feeling of darkness has pulled me away from the news.  It’s not that I don’t feel for those who are experiencing such heartache and terror, but I just can’t handle it when I’m feeling overly sensitive.   Still there are others who watch and worry with every bad news event that comes to fruition and I watch how it tears them up with fear.  So what’s the answer?  Is there a happy medium which we can find?

The darkest hour is just before dawn. – Thomas Fuller

I have to believe that there is hope in this world and that the world chaos’ crescendo will dissolve into the light of healing eventually.  This is what I pray for daily.  In the little things we do daily, we continue to be bursts of light and dawn by our kindness, our sharing and our caring.  A smile to a stranger, the little bits of hopeful connections we share with others along the way, the love that we emanate through our shining heartlights all continue to battle the darkness.

Life surely has its ups and downs.  We can wallow in the downs, but we can buoy to the top with help.  This life has strife, but we strive to continue to bring peace, love and light even as we battle the darkness.  Join me in shining our heartlights so that we can lessen the darkness of evil and spread sunshine, love and healing to all whom we encounter.

Shine On!

xo

 

Everything Is An Act Of Love

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Today I watched a video from Mind Valley where Neale Donald Walsch was speaking with Vishen Lakhiani (founder of Mind Valley).  I have included the video below and some of the phrases which beckoned to me in understanding what Conversations With God Book 4 is all about according to its author Neale Donald Walsch.

Here are a few highlights…

Every act is an act of love….even if it’s a distorted act of love.

Love expresses itself in many forms.

If you loved nothing, you’d fear nothing.

What do you love so much, that you’re willing to hurt me to experience it?

What hurts you so much, that you feel you have to hurt me to heal it?

God doesn’t have to forgive us for anything

Love is all there is.  There is only one energy in the universe.  Love is expressed in many forms.  Fear, for instance, is an expression of love.  Fear is love demonstrated in a particular way.  For instance, if you loved nothing, you’d fear nothing.  The only fear is the loss of what you love or the not getting of what you love.

We don’t seek to heal or to end this by fighting, we seek to end this by understanding.  Remember this always, understanding replaces forgiveness in the mind of the master.  You understand why they did what they did.

Here’s the video clip which explains it better than I ever could.  What do you think?

Shine On!

xo

 

Make Time For People

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Sometimes we need to drop everything and pay attention to the people around us.  Cleaning can be done at any time, but people, when in need, need us now, not when it’s more convenient.  Have you ever had a friend just call to chat because they needed a kind listener, but you’ve got plans to fix up your home, clean out your closets or such and you’re torn between getting done what’s on your list or connecting with them?

You know what the heartfelt decision is, right?

People first.

Did I even need to tell you that?  Or did you already innately know the answer? 

I think we get so caught up in our lives that we don’t make time for those who may need us, but don’t want to bother anyone with their feelings of sadness.  That tentative, I’m just calling to say hi, can sometimes be a disguise to a more needy version of help me, I’m falling apart.  It is with discretion that we need to answer those types of calls because we never know what someone else is going through in their lives.

Sadness can be masked in so many different ways.  Superwomen/Supermen that we are, we don’t share when times get tough for fear of gossip or being seen as weak or worrying what someone will think when sharing our deepest secrets.  But there comes a time when we need to share with a trusted friend.

There was a saying going around on Facebook recently.  Due to a recent suicide in our community, it went like this:

My door is always open. My house is safe. Coffee can be on in minutes, and the kitchen table is a place of peace and non-judgment. Anyone who needs to chat is welcome anytime. It’s no good suffering in silence. I have food in the fridge, coffee and tea in the cabinet, and something stronger if you need it. Listening ears, and shoulders to cry on. I will always be available…you are always welcome!! This is an old value that has been lost to technology…a text, facetime, or emoji is not the equivalent! (but can still help/is better than not reaching out at all),  You are never really alone and suicide is never the answer.
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#SuicideAwareness #MentalHealthAwareness
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There’s something touching with this post that I read countless times.  I just hope for heaven’s sake that people just aren’t copying/pasting and not meaning what they say.  For there are times in all of our lives when we just need a friend to lean on.

We recently had a young person pass away by suicide which rocked the community.  Love and support filled post after post which made my heart sad because I wished he had been able to get help from someone.  I know that sometimes there is not enough help for certain situations, but being me, I always hope for healing, for peace and for love.  And I know you do too.

So the next time you get an inconvenient offer for coffee or a drink or a walk, please say yes.  There are many hours in the day to get your list checked off, but you may be the much needed missing piece for healing in someone else’s day.

Shine On!

xo

 

 

 

Collateral Beauty

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I recently watched the movie Collateral Beauty which I had to watch again for there was just so much to notice, to understand and to assimilate into my life.  If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it.  Truly.  It’s that profound.

There’s a richness to the tapestry of the movie that I wouldn’t even try to explain to you in my blog.  Yet, if you have watched the movie, please reach out and share with me.

In the movie we realize:

Love, Time and Death

connect every single human being on earth

we long for love

we wish we had more time

and

we fear death.

Here’s the trailer for Collateral Beauty!

Please let me know what you think!

Shine On!

xo

Love Is… 1 Corinthians 13:1-8

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“If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing.  If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

“Love is patient and kind.  Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.  It does not demand its own way.  It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.  It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.  Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

“Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will become useless.  But love will last forever!”

~ 1 Corinthians 13:1-8

I thought this was a lovely reminder on a blessed Sunday.  May love and healing light fill your hearts, minds, souls and bodies each and every day.  May you continue to shine your heartlights and be grateful for the love surrounding us all in each and every moment!

Shine On!

xo