If one should say to you that the soul perishes like the body,
answer that the flower withers, but the seed remains.
Yesterday marked 3 weeks since my Dad passed and at the time he passed yesterday, I was out to eat with my sons, hubby and in-laws, all whom were laughing and eating and enjoying themselves. As I glanced at my watch, I said a silent prayer to Dad, hoping that perhaps his spirit could hear me.
For I know he would have loved to have been there ~ laughing, having a good time, teasing everyone. That’s the Dad I knew and loved. There are many complexities to my Dad, many attributes I didn’t care for, but the seed of love, well, that’s what I know remains in my heart now.
As I watch the sun rise over the lake this morning, I am all alone which I love. Mornings are my favorite when the house is quiet and it’s just me and my thoughts. That’s the time that I can mourn him, let a few of the tears flow and nourish my broken heart. It’s the ‘me’ time of day when I am strongest and I can fathom all of the grieving emotions that undulate in my heart during the day. My health hasn’t been so great lately ~ my body, heart, mind and soul have taken a beating ~ but I am still here and still mending ~ as always,taking it one baby step at a time.
The seed of Dad’s being still exists and I see signs of it everyday. Emails I receive from his friends, many of whom I didn’t know existed, continue to pop up in my inbox. Notes and letters continue to arrive in my mailbox as do stories recounted of what he had said and done when he was here. It’s these stories that remind me of the goodness of my Dad ~ and those are the seeds I want to remember.
He scattered seeds far and wide ~ most of them good ~ and that’s why we’re all here isn’t it? To touch others’ lives by our own in the best way possible.
So that’s what I concentrate on this morning as I write today’s post…a celebration of life and remembering the love. And as I ponder what my family would think if I were to perish tomorrow, I keep hoping that the seeds that I’m sowing today will make for a lifetime of love tomorrow.
Happy Friday to You!