I Am…who I want to be
So I’m sticking with the latest theme…probably because today marks 2 weeks since my Dad died. Wow…it’s been 2 weeks since I stood by his bedside while his heart ceased beating on its own ~ even though his breathing was being done for him by the ventilator. It seems like years ago and in the same breath, it seems like just moments ago.
To me, this whole experience has just reinforced my determination to be able to say the above sentence with courage, with happiness and without regrets. Do me a favor, go to the nearest mirror in your home and say to your eyes which stare back,
“I AM who I want to be.”
How do you feel? Can you say this truthfully? And are you happy with who you are?
If you felt great with it ~ Woo Hoo! I am so happy for you! Now your job is to go spread your sunshine to others!
However, if you have trouble saying the above, then there’s a bit of work to do for you. I think we are always evolving as we are always learning. I know that I feel that I am who I want to be, but I always want to improve myself. I am always reading and trying to learn about how to improve my life, myself and to be able to better hone in on my purpose in life. I haven’t quite gotten my purpose figured out yet.
Sometimes I just think it’s a work in progress until God/Universe decides to give me another cosmic kick in the rear ~ although quite frankly ~ breast cancer 10 years ago, 7 surgeries in the last 10 years ~ with 3 more to go this year~ my Dad dying and leaving us his business to take care of ~ and other little trinkets that have been passed to me ~ I think are enough. I just wish I knew more precisely what my purpose is…until I do, I think I’ll continue on the path I’m stepping and see where it takes me.
In the meantime,
I Am…who I want to be…
And I hope you are too!