Day 1 ~ “Today, I behold all the abundance that surrounds me.”
Day 2 ~ “I create my personal abundance from an infinite source.”
With Hurricane Sandy having blown through my life, 3 surgeries thus far and another coming up in December, plus my Dad’s passing and being responsible for closing out an almost 50 year law practice by myself…I’ve been a bit overwhelmed these days…and now there’s a Nor’Easter (another bad storm) on its way, ready to hit tomorrow. UGH! Double UGH!
So I am giving myself a pass today because I didn’t send this particular post out last week when I had planned to do it. Without power, there wasn’t much I could do about it! Perhaps there’s a reason for it…at least that’s the thought that I’m comforting myself with right now.
All is quiet in my home this morning. I awoke with a migraine (darn weather changes) and still, I wanted to use the stillness and freshness of the morning to enjoy the meditations that Deepak Chopra has so generously given to all. Today is Day 2 so I was behind already, but I am happy to report that I am all caught up. Like one of my sons in school, I feel that relief that my homework is done for the day and I can move on.
But something interesting happened today when I did the 2 meditations. I realized how stressed I am these days, how I’ve allowed my body to be encased in a hard pressured stressed feeling that is so tightly bound inside of me that I didn’t even realize that it existed. It had become my normal after so much stress in my life. And I can assure you, I am stressed with all of the responsibilities which have fallen onto my shoulders. I am in charge of everything and everyone right now ~ dealing with a body which is enduring more than its share of surgeries and traumas. I just keep pushing through to the next event, the next task and I’m not taking care of me. I’m too wrapped up in what has to be done, wishing I could skirt some of the mess and just be taken care of instead of taking care of it all.
There’s food to be bought because of the power outage for 6 days, we lost everything in the refrigerators/freezers. With the looming storm, I need to make sure that I replenish (but not too much) supplies. Then there’s the fact that Mom hasn’t been to her house in a week so I need to drive her there to make sure that things are ok, plus I believe she wants some new clothes having only packed for a few days. Boys still don’t have school and there’s the added burden of how to drive about 45 minutes away when there are still trees down, power out and gas rationing going on (which today’s not my day to fill up so I have to be careful).
I could go on and on and rehash all that is on my plate these days, but instead, I’ll leave you with what I learned. I am planting the seeds of abundance in my life through Deepak’s meditations. I am determined to unleash the synchronicity of blessings which are infinite and given to all.
I am blessed I know…but I am tired. I long to rest, to quit worrying and to just ‘be’ at peace. Perhaps with the start of the morning meditations, I can accomplish my goal. I am handing it all over to God/Universe/Infinite Spirit…I am letting go of my control and just allowing life to be.
Hugs to all of you…
Enjoy Deepak’s gift!