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Storm’s a brewin’

Lightning, Thunder, Stormy Seas…

The last few days I’ve been suffering from a migraine which usually means the barometer is changing and it has been.  We’ve been having some thunderstorms, rain, sun and unusual weather.  As I sit here writing this post, it’s intermittently been raining cats and dogs one minute, with thunderous clouds and loud, rolling thunder and then suddenly the sky switches to bright sunshine with the quiet roll of thunder in the background.  In fact, I feel like it’s like me these days…sunshine with a touch of raincloud followed by a bit of thunder.

But I digress because I wanted to post about change and how difficult it can be on the body, the mind and others around us.  I think this is where my inner and outer thunderclouds have originated.  I’m on a changing cycle I think and it’s a bit stormy here for me as I go through the changes.  I’m a bit daunted to be honest by the unknown ahead, but having delved into the unknown before, I am shoring up my courage to keep taking baby steps.

The outer thunder is just the careless roar of others which I can deal with although I’d prefer calm, sun-filled moments.  But that’s ok for me.  I’ve been through far worse.  The inner thunder is more treacherous to me and having experienced it before, it leaves me a little shaky these days.  Nothing like a touch of the unknown to scare me a bit.

I remember when I was first diagnosed, I was afraid to cry.  Imagine being afraid to cry!?  But I was afraid that if I started to cry, I’d never stop.  Now I know that sounds silly, but to me, it was perfectly logical.  I was unable to mourn the loss of my breasts because I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to stop crying about it.  So I held the pain inside until I almost burst.  Then a very dear friend told me not to be afraid to cry because eventually I’d stop…and those simple words, ‘eventually you’ll stop’ made all the difference in the world to me.  And the shift happened.

I cried for the loss of my breasts, for the time I spent in chemo, radiation, in hospitals, alone…I cried for the time I worried that I wouldn’t see my boys become teenagers.  I cried through sad movies, silly commercials and any true life story article or movie or book I could put my hands on.  It was like I needed that reason to cry and not the reason that I had in my own life and heart.  But through allowing those tears to escape me, I felt the weight of the sadness lifting from my soul and my heart.  It was when I allowed myself to cry, I was able to heal my heart and begin to take baby steps again.

It’s been a busy 8 weeks since my Dad passed and I’ve not had a lot of time to mourn the loss.  I know all about the grieving process having endured it when I had breast cancer 10 years ago.  I’ve been moving along through the 7 steps, only to stagger now.  But in the thundercloud where I am presently, it’s only fitting that a storm’s a brewin’ because I think many changes have occurred in the last 8 weeks of my life…and I just have to keep my thoughts on the prize of a sparkling rainbow!

Cheers to fears, tears and thunderclouds…

for they make the Rainbows that much sweeter!


Thankful Thursday ~ Don’t Quit!

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out –
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit –
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

 ~ Unknown

Happy Thankful Thursday to YOU!

Thank you all for reading my blogs and for commenting on them as well!

I thought I’d make a card for you with one of my favorite poems.  There’s something about the easy, sing-song rhyme of the above that I enjoy.   I carry a little card with this poem on it…let me know if you want one.  If you need a helping hand, I’m here for you!

Stand still when you have to,

take baby steps forward when you need to…

but please,

Don’t Quit!


Felt By the Heart…

“The best and most beautiful things in the world

cannot be seen or even touched.

They must be felt with the heart.” – Helen Keller

Have you ever just felt at peace?  Even for a moment, just felt the peace of life, love and spirit wash over you and just be with you?  Where you’re completely happy, content and breathing in and out with a gentleness of breath?  Have you?

I have started 3 blogs this morning, none of which are this one…because I couldn’t find the message I wanted to send today.  Each one was different, but I felt it was lacking.  Then I came upon this card and I just felt that peace wash over me…I knew this was my message for today…when was the last time you listened with your heart?

When was the last time you were touched by something in your heart?  When was the last time you just took a moment to ‘be’ and breathe and look to the sky or the grass and just focus even for a moment on this moment in time?  When did you last listen with your heart to the words (or the non-words) of a friend who’s hurting?  When was the last time YOU listened to yourself with your caring heart to what you actually felt, thought and knew?

Sometimes things and people are not always as they seem…we make up stories about them and then believe what we have ‘seen’ to be true.  We carry those thoughts with us in relation to those things/people and allow for foibles because they are dear to us and because we choose to see the good in all.

I am not advocating not seeing the good in all because I think it is important…but also as important is the knowledge that we need to listen to our guts, our intuition and our heart of hearts.  I for one, know that I lately I have been ‘busy’ but not listening to my heart.  I haven’t felt that knowing that I have learned I can tap into when I am at peace.  Perhaps it’s time to flex my heart muscle again and take a 5 minute BE session more regularly…

We all get so caught up in our lives, in our shoulda, woulda, coulda’s that we don’t take even a 5 minute break from it all to just be with ourselves and the beauty that surrounds us to enjoy it.  When was the last time you actually looked up at the sky to see the beautiful sunset or sunrise or even glimpsed a cloud formation and wondered how it continues on everyday and yet you don’t see it?

On my retreat in February, I did just that…and I felt in my heart the peace, love and unity that surrounds me…and I loved it!  Isn’t it time for you to do the same for yourself?  Why not join me today and take 5 minutes to just ‘be’…quiet your mind, focus on your heart and feel the gratefulness of today surround you.

Let me know how this works for you…and I’ll let you know as well.

Peace, love and gratefulness be yours today and everyday!