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It’s Been 15 Years and I’m Still Here!

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Fifteen years ago today, I was diagnosed with breast cancer.  At times, it seems as if it were yesterday.  At others, it seems a lifetime ago.  But as any cancer survivor knows, we never forget the diagnosis which begins this journey.

So today, I celebrate with gratitude the triumph of still being here to enjoy my life with my children.  Even though I celebrate this milestone alone today, I have many angels in my life to whom I look with loving gratitude for all that they have done for me throughout the years.  I hold dearly those memories of loving support and kindness which were gifted to me.  Indeed, sometimes it takes a village.

My life has changed by leaps and bounds since that fateful day.  I’ve overcome 10 + surgeries, chemotherapy, baldness, radiation and countless scares that the cancer had returned.  I’ve loved and lost and let go.  But what remains is my faith, my courage and my choice to stay here and fight for my life.

I’ve learned so many lessons by enduring cancer, ones that perhaps I wish I’d never learned, but yet I am grateful all the same.

So on this New Year’s Eve Day, please celebrate with me as I celebrate with you.  Cheers with gratitude to the lessons learned in the past 15 years and cheers to another year filled with light, love, health, prosperity and happiness for all!

Shine On!

xo

Happily Ever After

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Today I invite you to please celebrate with me my 300th post which I had begun writing last night ~ but when the Universe via the Daily Post served up the topic,

“And they lived happily ever after.” Think about this line for a few minutes. Are you living happily ever after? If not, what will it take for you to get there?

I was left with no other choice but to oblige as I can’t think of a more apropos way to celebrate 300 posts!  I started this blog long ago, back in 2010, but I didn’t pursue it.  Then in 2011, I began to blog again with welcome-to-the-presents-of-presence  and what began as a lark, has grown into a happy hobby which I hope will continue to evolve, to grow and to emerge into a book.  I want to thank you all for connecting with me via your amazing posts along the way which have broadened my horizons and your heartfelt comments which have warmed my heart!  I am so very grateful for every person who stops by my blog! xoxo

Now back to the daily prompt! 🙂

Shockingly for as much as I write about being happy here, I don’t believe in happily ever after in the traditional sense!  I know it sounds strange because I write about happiness much of the time.  However, I believe that happiness is a quotient of what you do in your daily life and it is the benefit that you reap daily every moment of every day that makes a happily ever after, but I don’t prescribe to the idea of living happily ever after because you did x once ~ x can be marrying the perfect spouse, winning the lottery, working at your dream job etc.

Does that make sense?  So to me, there’s no special path that I have to take in order to be happy.

I can just BE HAPPY BY CHOICE!

In fact, I am happy now!  And you can be too!

Need a few ways to find a smile?

1. Look up at the sky and admire the beauty that’s there for you to enjoy!

Blue skies, clouds, rainbows, sunshine, raindrops, snowflakes, the moon, the stars ~ all of it!

2.  Admire nature ~ the green of the grass, the foliage in the trees, the beauty in the flowers.

3.  Look in the mirror and smile at yourself!  You are so special!  You are loved.

4.  Hug yourself!  Hug someone else!  Hug your furry pet!

5.  Count your blessings ~ list 5 good things about your day!

Can’t think of 5?  How about 2 ~ then as the day goes along, you can add to the list!

The air we breathe, the water we drink, the food we eat, the fact that you woke up today!

6.  Laugh!

7.  Read a blog that’s uplifting!

8.  Write a heartfelt comment to someone!

9.  Turn up the volume and listen to your favorite dance tunes!

10.  Call a friend and chat!

11.  And here’s my smile ~ my gift to you!

I could go on and on, but what matters most is that you realize that…

HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE YOU MAKE!

YOU HOLD THE POWER of

HAPPILY EVER AFTER!

SHINE ON!

xo

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Come Join the Celebration!

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Congratulations!

February 1st, 2002 was the date that I had my bilateral mastectomy due to my breast cancer diagnosis and the pathology report which read that after my lumpectomy, I still had breast cancer in my body.  It’s also the date that marks the fact that I finally took hold of my own health and my life and decided to prophylactically take the non-cancerous breast as well, much to my surgeon’s chagrin.  I can happily report to you, that I still stand by my decision as it was the right one for me.

There is so much I have learned in the last 11 years since that day that I walked into the OR by myself, sobbing after being taken away from hugging my supportive husband who still stands by my side.  In the wake of having had those breasts reconstructed with silicone implants twice since then and then after having one of those implants rupture last year, beginning multiple surgeries to create what I now have for breasts which is body tissue taken from other parts of my body to make new, real, soft fleshy breasts which are mine and not artificial, hard, painful implants which I had endured because I had no choice, I am celebrating!

Since my breast cancer diagnosis on New Year’s Eve of 2001, my life has changed so dramatically that words fail me in trying to explain how richer my life has become.  I have endured much suffering, but I have also reaped many blessings.  I am grateful for each and every day when I arise from my bed to greet the world.  I am thankful for life’s blessings, the big and small ones and I know firsthand the meaning of the preciousness of time.  I practice being present in my life ~ enjoying The Presents of Presence ~ meaning actually being in the moment and enjoying what that moment offers.  My intent to cast worry from my shoulders is an ongoing trial in my life, but I accept that it is a work in progress.

I know I am blessed with a loving family and much support in my life and I rejoice in the fact that I can continue to send out love on a daily basis through my blog, my FB page The Presents of Presence, my SendOutCards business and my actions.   I have struggled through the grief of losing my breasts, fighting the disease through multiple surgeries (more than 10 and counting), ACT (chemotherapy), radiation, the loss of my ovaries at age 35 (salpingo oophorectomy), multiple needles, shots, medications, tamoxifen, arimidex,  the loss of my hair, my self-esteem, my confidence as a woman, the sad passing of friends from the same disease and the mortal fear of reoccurrence.  This is not a pity party by any means, so please don’t mis-understand me.  It’s actually a celebration of triumph!

My mother-in-law texted me this morning, “Have an especially happy day!” and I knew exactly what she meant for I knew that she remembered ~ and I knew that she would be there with me celebrating this momentous event.  I’m still here!  I have no painful implants anymore!  I have come full circle today ~ from having my God-given breasts, to having them removed due to dis-ease, to having them reconstructed not once, but twice with implants, to having been miraculously restored and reconstructed with breasts again which are of my own flesh and blood.

I am not sure that if you haven’t experienced this phenomenon that you can imagine how incredible it is to be here 11 years later celebrating so many wonderful gifts that my life has brought to me.  It is with heartfelt tears of joy, of gratitude and of above all, love that I write to you today.  However, knowing that we all carry burdens while we endure our journey on this earth, I feel like this is OUR CELEBRATION TODAY!  So please indulge me as I invite you to celebrate love and life on the first of February (don’t forget to say Rabbit Rabbit)  as well as family, friends, miracles, faith, joy, laughter, tears, gratitude, blessings, health, compassion, friendship…I could go on and on!

Celebrate Today my friends…Yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future…

Today is a gift, that’s why we call it the Present!

May The Presents of Presence

Be with You Every Day!

Shine On!

xo