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This is Sam and me!

Charlie’s foot is bothering him so now I’m riding Sam who is even bigger than Charlie, but he’s a smoother ride and starts out our lesson walking very slowly.  Charlie on the other hand is a bit more spirited out of the gate and harder to balance on so changing to Sam whose gait is smoother was a good change for now.  I am hoping Charlie heals soon though because he has a special place in my heart.

As I was grooming Sam, he sensed my hesitation in cleaning a little bit of mud off of his face.  He stood patiently still as I groomed his body before riding.  But when I got to his face, he gave me such a look that it stopped me in my tracks.  I’m short, 5″2′ tall so he’s really big to me.  With every brush, I showed it to him before I groomed him.  I thought it was only fair that he should know what I was doing.  But being a seasoned veteran of lessons and of newbies like me, it didn’t faze him in the least.  Until I got to his face.

I was talking with him and commenting how he had a bit of mud on his face.  At one point, he turned to face me and stared hard into my face.  Those big eyes (you know they are the size of golf balls!) looked at me, but instead of seeing the full brown eye, I saw part of the whites of his eyes as he looked at me.  I was tentative and a little scared for some reason.  He’s so big that I got frightened even though he wasn’t doing anything but looking at me from the side.  I felt a pulse of insecurity which was on my part and stepped back.  Even as I write this, I only know that it was a significant moment because my fear was there.  Fear of what I’ve asked myself,  but there’s been so significant response.  Maybe I thought he was going to bite me?  I don’t know for sure because I’ve been told he’s not a biter.  But I didn’t know that then.

So I stepped back and asked one of the girls nearby to help me get the mud off of his face.  She calmly came over and brushed him, talking with him as I had done.  When she was finished, he seemed to look at me as if to say, Man up little girl and face your fears because I’m not scary.

I walked into the paddock to mount him and then we started to walk, but he stopped and wouldn’t move.  It was like he was testing me, not in a belligerent way, but in a have courage, do what we’re supposed to do and tell me what you want.  It took a good few minutes of him standing stoically before he began to walk (after my trainer clucked to him multiple times and I used my legs to urge him to begin walking).  Then he finally started.

Balancing on a horse was to me like playing the game Twister.  Reins at a certain height, put your heels down, keep your legs relaxed and not on his shoulders, sit up straight, hold in your core, but stay relaxed!  Yikes!  It’s hard work!  I tried (again!) the 2 point position that is the precursor to posting, but I was failing miserably even though Sam was so patient and gentle.  So my trainer took me off Sam and rode him, showing me what I wasn’t getting on my own.  What a difference that made!!

When I got back on Sam, because I could actually SEE what she meant, I was so much more comfortable and it showed!  I was able to keep the 2 point position correctly and for longer even though my ab muscles were getting a workout.  Sam, true to form, flowed with my learning curve, staying the course and making it easier for me to balance and concentrate on my form.

At the end of the lesson, for which once I finally was understanding the whole form thing, I begged to have another 1/2 hour because I felt in the zone!  But there was another rider’s lesson after me.  So when I dismounted, Sam and I had a few minutes alone while I waited for the next rider to come into the paddock.

I stood by Sam’s head and talked with him as we waited.  I’m probably being silly here, but the tears are flowing as I type.  Maybe I’m overly sensitive, but as I was thanking him for all that we’d accomplished today, he nestled his head onto my shoulder and into my neck so softly as if to comfort me and say See, we’ve got this you and me.  We’re a team and you can trust me and yourself.  He gazed into my eyes and I melted with love for him, bravely kissing his face and petting him with so much appreciation and love.  He nuzzled me again, rubbing his face onto mine as I cooed to him.  It was such a magical moment for me.  Truly.  What I’m writing sounds so hollow because it was so much more.  It was as if there were a breakthrough in healing for me and Sam helped me so much.

When the next rider came to take Sam, I kissed him good bye and thanked him.  As I passed some people who had been watching, they said they didn’t know Sam was such an affectionate horse.  I smiled and nodded because I had tears in my eyes, tears of healing and gratitude for my horse angel Sam.

Shine On!

xo

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What Does It Mean To Be Exceptional?

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Exceptional is one of those adjectives which cause us to take note of their loving inner beauty and their bright shiny sparkly heartlight when we use it to describe a person.  Or at least, that’s how I used it.

So what does it mean to be exceptional?  Are you a saint because you’re exceptional?  Or are you just a plain ole person who shines their heartlight on others?  Is it innately easy to be exceptional or does it take hard work and planning?  Can you be exceptional in certain aspects and just plain normal in others or is it all-encompassing?

Can exceptional be ruled on an act that you achieve or don’t?  Or is it just a feeling?

Who do you know who is exceptional?  Are you exceptional?  Your kids?  Your spouse?  Your pet?  Your friends?  The Dalai Lama?  Mother Teresa?  Princess Diana?  A person who has overcome adversity?  Do you look up to exceptional people as role models?

How do you define the word exceptional?

  How do you define a person whom you would deem exceptional?

I think exceptional is a lovely description of someone who shines and you, my dear friends, shine exceptionally beautifully!  Big hugs to all today and always.  I can see your heartlights shining from here!

Shine On!

xo

 

 

Mother Teresa on Love

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In honor of the canonization of Mother Teresa today, please watch the video below, in her own words, speaking of love.

Mother Teresa speaking of love

“Where does this love begin? In our own family, in our own home.  How does it begin?  By praying together.  Family that prays together, stays together and if you stay together, you will love one another as God loves each one of you

Today in the world there is so much suffering.  Because of that one of prayer of unity in the family so today when we are together, let us make one strong resolution that we will bring prayer into our family, that we will teach our children to pray and pray with them and you will see the joy and the love and the peace that will come into your hearts.  Because the fruit of prayer is the deepening of faith and the fruit of faith is love and the fruit of love is service and the fruit of service is peace.  Works of love are works of peace that is why let us bring the tender love of God in our families.”

~Mother Teresa, speech on Love

Love one another.

Pray.

Shine On!

 xo

Gratitude Day 15 ~ Grateful for Life

“Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
 Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.”
~Mother Teresa

I love this quote from Mother Teresa and chose it this morning because I’m so grateful for my life and for the lives of my loved ones.  This journey that we’re on with my Dad is not the first one we’ve endured with him as he’s been hospitalized before this and he’s fought his way back to health.  For as much as he can be persnickety (just love that word!), the fight within him continues and enables him to elongate his life.

But it brings home that realization as well that “Life is Short” ~ a quote we’ve heard repeatedly from older generations ~ one that I know, I’ve brushed off myself when I was younger and before I knew I had breast cancer.  “Tomorrow, tomorrow…you’re only a day away” rang in my ears because when you’re young, there’s always tomorrow!  I’m not saying that we don’t have a tomorrow in our futures, but what about TODAY ~ NOW?  We have such power in the Present of Presence ~ of being here and now and enjoying this moment for what is it ~ good, bad, sad, but never indifferent…to live a life that is full of precious moments so that on our deathbeds, we are not regretting all of the woulda, coulda, shoulda’s that we may have missed.

Mother Teresa had it right ~ life is all of the above ~ so live it! 

Enjoy it!  Revel in it because it’s YOUR GIFT!

With a grateful, loving heart, flow along with your day and enjoy this gift of life.

You’ve earned it!

Happy Wednesday to You!

xo