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You Wait Differently

When you understand God is never late, you wait differently.

I saw this quote randomly on Facebook this morning. A friend of a friend’s post that impacted me in an unusual way. Read the quote slowly and see if it does the similarly for you. Did you feel that bump in your chest? That thump thump of remembrance that there’s a higher power helping us when we choose to think, to believe, to remember when we get quiet within?

We get so hyped up these days trying to make things work. At least that’s how it feels to me. People are fearful and doubting and there’s so much unrest, so many emotional frustrations spewing…I guess that’s why I tend to get quiet for long periods of time. I just don’t like to be around those frenetic energies. I don’t care for drama, so I don’t engage.

But this quote: When you understand God is never late, you wait differently – it hit a chord of peace within me so I wanted to share it with you today. I hope it brings you peace within to hold in your heart and allow it to heal.

Our movement towards a gentle understanding is happening. We are at the point of embracing peace within or not. Alway free will, your personal choice. Choose wisely. Be patient. God is never late.

Shine On!

xo

Happy Sunday Happy New Year

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

Good morning! Happy Sunday and Happy New Year! I can’t believe we’re in the year 2023! Does it seem as startling to you this morning as it does to me? Perhaps it’s just that I haven’t had enough coffee yet! 🙂 But time truly flies when you sit quietly and reflect as I’ve been doing this morning. Reflecting and being present and also taking care to think about the future. Because isn’t that what we do on New Year’s Day?!

It’s a fresh start beginning with January 1st. While I’m not one for declaring my resolutions for the coming year, I know many people who do. Instead, I’d rather take stock of what I have, count my blessings with gratitude, and plan for the future with lots of hope mixed in.

Faith. Hope. and Love.

I’ve been through a lot over the years while I’ve been writing to you. I’ve battled breast cancer (yesterday marked 21 years since my diagnosis). I’ve lost both of my parents. I’ve cleaned out and sold 4 houses for family due to deaths. The marriage and relationship with his family ceased to exist. I’ve endured open heart surgery and Covid. Those are just the biggies. I’m sure there’s more, I just can’t think of them right now…But what I’m getting at is this: what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger…and I’ve learned how strong I innately am!

As I held my sons last night after we watched the ball drop together in Times Square, I began to get teary. The three of us stood together in a unified hug, as it should be. We are family. We have endured so much together. It hasn’t been easy, but it has been so worth it.

I got teary because I am so grateful. I know how precious life is. I understand that life can change in a moment’s notice. When I look back over the last ten years, so much in my life has changed. So much in my sons’ lives have changed and while we don’t know where this new year will take us, what I do know in my heart is this: we will do it together and there’s no place I’d rather be right now than with them.

So as I sit here with a kitty on my lap, the boys and pup asleep upstairs in the early hours of the first day of the new year, I send you love, gratitude and a gentle reminder to always remember to enjoy – the presents of presence – in your life!

Shine On!

xo

Angels Walk Among Us

Throughout my lifetime, I have been blessed. I know this and I don’t take it for granted. In fact, I want to celebrate it so that you can see it in your lives too! Because when we see with a grateful heart, we understand that we are never alone. God sends us angels in all different forms to help us along the way. Strangers who become friends. People who go out of their way for others whom they don’t know. Information and synchronicities that come out of nowhere that are the key to unlocking certain situations. Wisdom that’s shared simply because it will help someone else. Do you see what I mean?

These human angels walk among us. Have you ever wondered how you got the right person on the phone when you were trying to fix something? Or noticed a stranger in line at the grocery store doing something so kind and it makes your day? Have you ever been nudged to reach out to someone to help them? Why, that’s God’s way of expanding his angelic kindness through us!

If you’re not a believer in God, but perhaps in Mother Nature’s infinite wisdom or the Universal Laws or something else, I feel as if it is all similar when we connect with kindness with others. Can you feel it?

Since the start of this next chapter with my heart, I have met so many angels along the way that it’s been amazing. The Divine Timing of our meet cutes has been extraordinary. But I know (big inner smile) that there’s a soul plan here at work. It’s not by chance most likely. It’s got more of an angelic feel to it and I am relishing in all of it.

For when we are grateful, when we acknowledge the blessings, we open our hearts/minds/souls to more of the same. When we receive with grace, we can also give out and flow with the loving energies that are so healing.

Not just now, but throughout my life, angelic humans have made their presence known to me, helping me when needed in extraordinary ways. My sister and I have had many of these experiences and we are so grateful to continue to have them. We marvel at each encounter which solidifies our thinking.

So I hope that if you are nudged to get out of your comfort zone to connect with someone else that you will not hesitate. Sometimes we are the catalyst for joyfully changing someone else’s life and that’s the best feeling ever! For those of you, who like me, have been the recipient, let’s continue to pass it along, spreading kindness and love with each personal encounter.

Our world aches to grow in love so let’s feed it! Keep shining your heartlights for we can see them!

Shine On!

xo

A Fluttery Heart

I’m more aware of my heart these days which is pretty fascinating since it’s been with me my whole life. Right? I mean, are you aware of your heart? Or of your breathing? Because they are working 24/7 365/6 days a year, non-stop to keep our human selves alive. We can’t go on without either one doing their jobs, but how much are we really aware of them?

I can say, I wasn’t really aware until now. As I sit here writing, I can feel my fluttery heart beating in my chest. Even though I’m seated in my new recliner for the moment, my little heart is fluttery which is how I describe this feeling of it beating out of my chest for no reason. It’s not like I’m exercising or anything, and still, it’s making itself known. That’s a good thing as I don’t want it to stop anytime soon!

Because I wear my heart on my sleeve. I always have. That and every emotion shows front and center on my face. I’ve been told that you can read me like a book and I guess it’s true because I don’t have a good poker face. I don’t like to hide how I feel because that’s not how I’m made. I’m more of a let it all out type of person which may or may not help in certain life situations. But it is what it is…and I am who I am. No excuses. No guilt. I’m me. Take me or leave me. It’s ok now. I’m at peace, finalmente.

This whole-hearted experience has changed me, enriched my life emotionally, spiritually and for the better. There is a peace which has emerged from within me, sprouting up like a tender flower stalk and blossoming with showman spirit using all the courage she can muster. It’s like a ‘ta-da’ moment, arms raised in victory, that I’ve gotten to this very place of loving myself and not being afraid to fearlessly give out love, shine my own heart light and enjoy every sparkle of love given and received. Not that I haven’t always quietly been that way, but now, more than ever, the fluttery heart demands her presence known everywhere I go. I’m smiling as I write this because it’s as if I’ve always known I would come to this – a surrender, a delivery of who I really am and an embracing of my authentic self with all of my strengths and weaknesses, without excuse, without fear, and with love and acceptance.

I love the way the Soul works. There’s a divinity in the perfect timing of all of this even though I haven’t figured out how/why/when. What I do know is that there’s no such thing as coincidence. There’s a plan here and I am grateful to be a part of it.

So I’ll embrace my fluttery heart and allow it to lead me without question, and to shine without reservation. Can you see my heartlight?

Shine On!

xo

Celebrating Twenty Years

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I am feeling so blessed today, more than usual, as I celebrate this special milestone in my life. I wanted to share it with you, my friends, since you have been with me for many years. Twenty years ago today, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and, as you can imagine, I was devastated. My life turned upside down and I will admit, there have been many ups and downs over the last two decades. But I am still here and cancer free today.

I have learned so much over these past twenty years and I have so many loved ones, family and friends, doctors, nurses, lab techs, and even strangers to thank for helping me along the way. It took a village to get me to where I am and I am ever grateful to all of the angelic people who each made a positive difference in my life.

With a grateful heart, I have been blessed with this milestone. I learned so much from having breast cancer that I consider it a gift, for even though it took a lot from me, the life lessons I learned from it are priceless. Hence the name of my blog, The Presents of Presence.

For in being present with what is and what was, I learned that I am stronger than I ever knew I could be. I found inner strength and joy in the simplest moments which might have passed me by, if I didn’t learn to take each day as it comes. The color of a sunset, the warmth of a summer breeze, the amazing gifts from Mother Nature and the new beginning each dawn brings. Learning that life is short and love is the legacy I wish to leave behind when it is my turn to transition.

I learned that people may come and go, but I remain grateful for the good memories. I learned about forgiveness. I learned about healing, physical, mental, emotional, and how the body, mind, and soul work in conjunction. I discovered a deeper sense of spirituality, divinity, and the cultivating of inner peace.

I bonded with others who had cancer and found an incredible connection in helping them. I also lost a few friends I made through their untimely passing from the cancer we were fighting together. They inspired me to keep going even when they could no longer. I found a calling in helping others.

My rituals have evolved over the years to include prayers, quiet moments, a gratitude journal, and increasing my intuition and all of the precious gifts that I was too busy to explore. I have found me over the years, authentic me, the one with whom I am at peace.

I have scars from the many, many surgeries I have endured. I have health issues resulting from what I experienced and I am still checked often to make sure that the cancer remains at bay. Up until now, those check ups, twinges, strange lumps, etc. could put me into anxiety wondering if this were a dreaded reoccurrence come to pass. Perhaps now at twenty years, I will be able to ease that part of me, knowing that I have had this time to continue to heal myself.

The light of love never dims. Our heart lights shine on always and so tonight, as I raise a glass of champagne with my sons over dinner at home, I thank you all from my heart for your kindness, your support and your love. You are a blessing to me and I am so grateful for all of you.

Shine On!

xo

Christmas Will Never Be The Same Again

I realized today that Christmas will never be the same again after our new addition. Our house and all of its Christmas decorations are not in the same places anymore. As you can see above, the furry Christmas tree skirt continues to be askew because Buster loves to snuggle on it. So he does and I’m ok with it.

My sons and I are sitting and relaxing in the family room together while the puppy is in what we refer to as his corral (playpen) nearby. He’s relaxing after having gone outside for yet another romp in the grass, picking up sticks and leaves and carrying them around before we have to open his mouth to make sure he doesn’t choke. It’s like having a baby again, except this one eats things off the ground! LOL

This has been a long year, hasn’t it? Filled with many challenges, but on this day, I am feeling grateful that we are all still here, still healthy and happy. I hope that you are all doing well too. I was late designing the Christmas cards this year, so they are more like New Year’s cards, if in fact they arrive before the new year begins. A little nudge had me hesitant to choose a family photo for the card because I kept feeling as if a puppy were in our future, he’d arrive in time for his Christmas card debut. I am grateful to report that he did!

A golden retriever was not the breed we originally planned to get; as a black Labrador, like the one I had growing up, was our intent. Well, at first it was a husky which my older son had been begging to get for years, but even though I adore huskies too, I have heard they need a lot of exercise and we are not in the position for that at this time. So when we saw this little puppy locked eyes with us, touching our souls and letting us know that he was our new baby, there were no questions. I believe that we connect with our animals and bond through the love. They come to us when we are open and able to embrace what is meant to be.

I will tell you that occasionally I wonder what I was thinking as puppy training is a challenge at the moment. So if you have any tips and tricks, I’m listening and ready to learn!

Shine On!

xo

Grateful For You!

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.

It turns what we have into enough, and more.

It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity.

It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.

Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.”

Melody Beattie

Whether you celebrate Thanksgiving or not, my wishes for you remain the same. May you find peace within you. May you celebrate the love within and surrounding you. May you remember to be grateful for everything because you are here, present in our world, shining your beautiful light!

Have a lovely day today and may the angels shine down upon you with a flourish of blessings.

Shine On!

xo

Happy Blessed Easter

I wish you all a very Happy Blessed Easter. May an abundance of Easter blessings be yours. Above is the stained glass window from my childhood church which brings me back to the decades of Sundays I spent looking at this amazing window.

When I saw this photo, it touched my heart in ways that I hadn’t predicted. Something so very familiar and yet from so long ago brought a tear to my eye in a nostalgic way. Have you ever had this feeling? It’s the tenderness in the moment wrapped in the gratitude for their love.

May you all stay well. May you keep gratitude and joy in your hearts. Please continue to shine your heartlights for all to see for we need more light in this world. God Bless.

Shine On!

xo

Birthday Blessings

I am one of those people who loves her birthday. Perhaps it’s because I am so grateful to have made it another year around the sun that I am like a little girl when it comes to my birthday. The joy that emanates from me is palpable. Perhaps it is because I am a cancer survivor, but honestly, I’ve always been this way. I just love my birthday and I’m not afraid to show it!

Some people my age (ahem) may not feel the same way I do, but I can’t help it! I am thrilled to tell you how old I am for I have made it through some hard times and I’m still here! I’ve earned every wrinkle (through laughter and tears) and I’m thrilled that I can say I’m over 50 years old and still here! I don’t shy away from telling my age because it’s only a number to me. A way to count my years on this planet.

I feel immense gratitude toward all of the beautiful friends and family that I love so much for making my day special – each in their own way. There’s such a wave of love that has poured over me today that I am floating on a sea of love and enjoying every single minute of it. How I wish I could share this with you (well that’s why I’m writing!) so I can remember this special feeling.

The darling birds are chirping outside my window pane and I have my beloved cats here next to me as I sip my coffee in the quiet of the morning. My children are still soundly asleep, safe and happy in their home with me. All is well and I feel so much gratitude to God for all that I have.

This peaceful full of love feeling has my heartlight shining at maximum luminosity. There is a happy song playing in my heart. Can you hear it too?

Please allow me to share this joy with you! Allow my heart light and heart song to illuminate your day, shower peace and healing into your life and remain with you. Thank you all for reading and for being my sweet friends!

Shine On!

xo

Our Deepest Fear

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Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.

We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.

It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

 

Just a little inspiration for all of us.  May you continue to shine your heartlights!

Shine On!

xo