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Celebrating Twenty Years

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I am feeling so blessed today, more than usual, as I celebrate this special milestone in my life. I wanted to share it with you, my friends, since you have been with me for many years. Twenty years ago today, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and, as you can imagine, I was devastated. My life turned upside down and I will admit, there have been many ups and downs over the last two decades. But I am still here and cancer free today.

I have learned so much over these past twenty years and I have so many loved ones, family and friends, doctors, nurses, lab techs, and even strangers to thank for helping me along the way. It took a village to get me to where I am and I am ever grateful to all of the angelic people who each made a positive difference in my life.

With a grateful heart, I have been blessed with this milestone. I learned so much from having breast cancer that I consider it a gift, for even though it took a lot from me, the life lessons I learned from it are priceless. Hence the name of my blog, The Presents of Presence.

For in being present with what is and what was, I learned that I am stronger than I ever knew I could be. I found inner strength and joy in the simplest moments which might have passed me by, if I didn’t learn to take each day as it comes. The color of a sunset, the warmth of a summer breeze, the amazing gifts from Mother Nature and the new beginning each dawn brings. Learning that life is short and love is the legacy I wish to leave behind when it is my turn to transition.

I learned that people may come and go, but I remain grateful for the good memories. I learned about forgiveness. I learned about healing, physical, mental, emotional, and how the body, mind, and soul work in conjunction. I discovered a deeper sense of spirituality, divinity, and the cultivating of inner peace.

I bonded with others who had cancer and found an incredible connection in helping them. I also lost a few friends I made through their untimely passing from the cancer we were fighting together. They inspired me to keep going even when they could no longer. I found a calling in helping others.

My rituals have evolved over the years to include prayers, quiet moments, a gratitude journal, and increasing my intuition and all of the precious gifts that I was too busy to explore. I have found me over the years, authentic me, the one with whom I am at peace.

I have scars from the many, many surgeries I have endured. I have health issues resulting from what I experienced and I am still checked often to make sure that the cancer remains at bay. Up until now, those check ups, twinges, strange lumps, etc. could put me into anxiety wondering if this were a dreaded reoccurrence come to pass. Perhaps now at twenty years, I will be able to ease that part of me, knowing that I have had this time to continue to heal myself.

The light of love never dims. Our heart lights shine on always and so tonight, as I raise a glass of champagne with my sons over dinner at home, I thank you all from my heart for your kindness, your support and your love. You are a blessing to me and I am so grateful for all of you.

Shine On!

xo

Christmas Will Never Be The Same Again

I realized today that Christmas will never be the same again after our new addition. Our house and all of its Christmas decorations are not in the same places anymore. As you can see above, the furry Christmas tree skirt continues to be askew because Buster loves to snuggle on it. So he does and I’m ok with it.

My sons and I are sitting and relaxing in the family room together while the puppy is in what we refer to as his corral (playpen) nearby. He’s relaxing after having gone outside for yet another romp in the grass, picking up sticks and leaves and carrying them around before we have to open his mouth to make sure he doesn’t choke. It’s like having a baby again, except this one eats things off the ground! LOL

This has been a long year, hasn’t it? Filled with many challenges, but on this day, I am feeling grateful that we are all still here, still healthy and happy. I hope that you are all doing well too. I was late designing the Christmas cards this year, so they are more like New Year’s cards, if in fact they arrive before the new year begins. A little nudge had me hesitant to choose a family photo for the card because I kept feeling as if a puppy were in our future, he’d arrive in time for his Christmas card debut. I am grateful to report that he did!

A golden retriever was not the breed we originally planned to get; as a black Labrador, like the one I had growing up, was our intent. Well, at first it was a husky which my older son had been begging to get for years, but even though I adore huskies too, I have heard they need a lot of exercise and we are not in the position for that at this time. So when we saw this little puppy locked eyes with us, touching our souls and letting us know that he was our new baby, there were no questions. I believe that we connect with our animals and bond through the love. They come to us when we are open and able to embrace what is meant to be.

I will tell you that occasionally I wonder what I was thinking as puppy training is a challenge at the moment. So if you have any tips and tricks, I’m listening and ready to learn!

Shine On!

xo

Grateful For You!

“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.

It turns what we have into enough, and more.

It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity.

It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.

Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow.”

Melody Beattie

Whether you celebrate Thanksgiving or not, my wishes for you remain the same. May you find peace within you. May you celebrate the love within and surrounding you. May you remember to be grateful for everything because you are here, present in our world, shining your beautiful light!

Have a lovely day today and may the angels shine down upon you with a flourish of blessings.

Shine On!

xo

Happy Blessed Easter

I wish you all a very Happy Blessed Easter. May an abundance of Easter blessings be yours. Above is the stained glass window from my childhood church which brings me back to the decades of Sundays I spent looking at this amazing window.

When I saw this photo, it touched my heart in ways that I hadn’t predicted. Something so very familiar and yet from so long ago brought a tear to my eye in a nostalgic way. Have you ever had this feeling? It’s the tenderness in the moment wrapped in the gratitude for their love.

May you all stay well. May you keep gratitude and joy in your hearts. Please continue to shine your heartlights for all to see for we need more light in this world. God Bless.

Shine On!

xo

Birthday Blessings

I am one of those people who loves her birthday. Perhaps it’s because I am so grateful to have made it another year around the sun that I am like a little girl when it comes to my birthday. The joy that emanates from me is palpable. Perhaps it is because I am a cancer survivor, but honestly, I’ve always been this way. I just love my birthday and I’m not afraid to show it!

Some people my age (ahem) may not feel the same way I do, but I can’t help it! I am thrilled to tell you how old I am for I have made it through some hard times and I’m still here! I’ve earned every wrinkle (through laughter and tears) and I’m thrilled that I can say I’m over 50 years old and still here! I don’t shy away from telling my age because it’s only a number to me. A way to count my years on this planet.

I feel immense gratitude toward all of the beautiful friends and family that I love so much for making my day special – each in their own way. There’s such a wave of love that has poured over me today that I am floating on a sea of love and enjoying every single minute of it. How I wish I could share this with you (well that’s why I’m writing!) so I can remember this special feeling.

The darling birds are chirping outside my window pane and I have my beloved cats here next to me as I sip my coffee in the quiet of the morning. My children are still soundly asleep, safe and happy in their home with me. All is well and I feel so much gratitude to God for all that I have.

This peaceful full of love feeling has my heartlight shining at maximum luminosity. There is a happy song playing in my heart. Can you hear it too?

Please allow me to share this joy with you! Allow my heart light and heart song to illuminate your day, shower peace and healing into your life and remain with you. Thank you all for reading and for being my sweet friends!

Shine On!

xo

Our Deepest Fear

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Our Deepest Fear
By Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.

We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.

It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

 

Just a little inspiration for all of us.  May you continue to shine your heartlights!

Shine On!

xo


As The Veil Thins

Today, October 31st, we have a second full moon in the same month which is called a Blue Moon. It coincides with All Hallow’s Eve (Halloween) which is the precursor to November 1st which is All Saints Day. Additionally, we have to turn the clocks back. What a busy day indeed!

The veil thins during this time. What does that mean? It is a time when the separation between the living and those who have passed away is thinner and perhaps we can find communication easier between us.

These last few years I have had many loved ones pass away and it has been difficult to go on without them in my life. As with anyone who has grieved, there have been times when the ache has been tremendous and the yearning for one more moment with them has been overwhelming. But at other times, I have felt peace, knowing they are not suffering anymore and are with God.

My loved ones have given me many signs that they are still with me. Often I have often felt their presence even though they have passed away. For that, I am truly grateful. While some may say these events were coincidental, I know in my heart that they were truly signs of love from those dearly departed souls whom I miss.

Have you ever had signs from those who have passed away? Please share!

Shine On!

xo

National POW/MIA Recognition Day

While I’ve never been in the military, I have had many family members who were and many friends who are/have been. Supporting those who protect us has been a special part of our family legacy.

I remember when I was young, my Dad wore a POW/MIA bracelet. As I recall, it was a silver bracelet with the name of a soldier engraved on it in block letters with a star sticker. I was fascinated by what it meant to wear that bracelet as he explained its significance to me.

I wanted a bracelet too so that I could pray for this soldier to come home, to be found and reunited with his family. Even back then at a tender age I believed in the power of prayer with fervent hope.

Unfortunately, neither my soldier nor my Dad’s were ever found as far as we know and in the shuffle of many moves, I don’t even know where the bracelets are. But I distinctly remember wearing the bracelet and its significance to me.

I have attended military functions and said a prayer for those who weren’t able to be there with us. The solitary candle lit by the empty place setting in remembrance for them always brought tears to my eyes for that symbolism.

So today I ask that you take a moment to remember the POW’s and those who have gone MIA (Missing In Action) and have never returned home to their families. It is heartbreaking for me to imagine not knowing what has happened to your loved one.

God Bless and Shine On!

xo

How Will We Look Back On This Time?

How Will We Look Back On This Time?

I wonder how in the future history books will this period of time (the year 2020) be remembered.  Will we define time by politics, the virus, the educational system changes, the fear, the lockdown, mask wearing, conspiracies, the election, the closing down of so many businesses, the crazy weather, the earthquakes, the violence, the deaths of loved ones, the now shortage of coins?  Wow, when you put it out there in a list, it’s alarming, isn’t it?  But there has been good in this year as well when you look for it.  Can you name a few good highlights thus far?  Please share!

As 2020 is a year jam packed with (dare I say) unforeseen changes in our lives, I also find it interesting that we quote ‘hindsight is 20/20’ when we look back and make sense of the past.  I wonder how we will look back on this year when we’re not in the midst of it.  Will we be able to better understand the working pieces of it from an observer point of view?  I also wonder how we will all find peace in the last half of this year with all of the worries we are already handling.

Since it is Sunday, I ask that you take some time to be from a place of peace and not fear.  Send out love instead of hatred or fear.  Put aside worry in order to replace it with the knowing that you are blessed, capable and supported.  Most importantly, connect with others.  We help each other along the way so please don’t forget to reach out with kindness to all.

Your heartlights need to shine now more than ever.  Light up your part of the world with your loving essence.  See the beauty in the simplicity in nature.  Surround yourself with positivity.  Keep your faith.  Hold steady.  Love your family, friends and all.

There is no other time but the present moment, so live your life to its fullest.  Continue on your loving path and allow mercy and grace to accompany your heartlights.

Shine On!

xo

Full Pink Moon…Is There Something Going On?

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I awoke this morning because my phone was ringing a little after 6am.  It was a local number, but I didn’t pick it up.  I let it ring through to voicemail, but the caller didn’t leave a message.  I wanted to pick it up, but then again, I was thinking it was one of those robocalls even thought it’s really early for them.  Then, I thought that perhaps it was someone who misdialed.  Then again, the question of if it were someone from where my Mom lives trying to get in touch with me.  But they would have left a message and probably called from the company number.  But, it remains a mystery still.

I couldn’t lay in bed any longer wondering so I just got up and fixed some coffee and fed the cats who were hungry.  I walked into our family room and one of the battery candles which works from a remote was lit.  It’s just for decoration because I prefer the timer ones so I never use it.  In fact, the remote is tucked away in a drawer.  But it was lit even though it’s paired candle was not.

It wasn’t lit before I went to bed and there wasn’t movement on the security cameras to show someone lighting it either.  But suddenly, it’s lit.  I feel there’s a strange phenomena going on with the phone call and the candle being lit.  One of life’s mysteries or signs from God?  A synchronicity occurring that may or may not ever answer my questions.

My questions are:  Who called this morning?  Who lit the candle and why?

I have a strange feeling that with the full pink moon today/tonight there are signs and I just have to get quiet to understand.  Perhaps one of you can give me some intuitive guidance if you get anything from my post?

My deceased Dad is one to play with electricity and remotely lighting a battery operated candle would go along with that notion.  Is he just letting me know that he’s here with me?  Lighting my way in the darkness?

Any and all psychic help or intuitive healing is appreciated.  Keep shining your heartlights dear friends.  We are all here to help one another.  I hope you’re doing well and that you’re staying safe and healthy.  God bless.

Shine On!

xo