Celebrating Twenty Years

Flowers from CAngel

I am feeling so blessed today, more than usual, as I celebrate this special milestone in my life. I wanted to share it with you, my friends, since you have been with me for many years. Twenty years ago today, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and, as you can imagine, I was devastated. My life turned upside down and I will admit, there have been many ups and downs over the last two decades. But I am still here and cancer free today.

I have learned so much over these past twenty years and I have so many loved ones, family and friends, doctors, nurses, lab techs, and even strangers to thank for helping me along the way. It took a village to get me to where I am and I am ever grateful to all of the angelic people who each made a positive difference in my life.

With a grateful heart, I have been blessed with this milestone. I learned so much from having breast cancer that I consider it a gift, for even though it took a lot from me, the life lessons I learned from it are priceless. Hence the name of my blog, The Presents of Presence.

For in being present with what is and what was, I learned that I am stronger than I ever knew I could be. I found inner strength and joy in the simplest moments which might have passed me by, if I didn’t learn to take each day as it comes. The color of a sunset, the warmth of a summer breeze, the amazing gifts from Mother Nature and the new beginning each dawn brings. Learning that life is short and love is the legacy I wish to leave behind when it is my turn to transition.

I learned that people may come and go, but I remain grateful for the good memories. I learned about forgiveness. I learned about healing, physical, mental, emotional, and how the body, mind, and soul work in conjunction. I discovered a deeper sense of spirituality, divinity, and the cultivating of inner peace.

I bonded with others who had cancer and found an incredible connection in helping them. I also lost a few friends I made through their untimely passing from the cancer we were fighting together. They inspired me to keep going even when they could no longer. I found a calling in helping others.

My rituals have evolved over the years to include prayers, quiet moments, a gratitude journal, and increasing my intuition and all of the precious gifts that I was too busy to explore. I have found me over the years, authentic me, the one with whom I am at peace.

I have scars from the many, many surgeries I have endured. I have health issues resulting from what I experienced and I am still checked often to make sure that the cancer remains at bay. Up until now, those check ups, twinges, strange lumps, etc. could put me into anxiety wondering if this were a dreaded reoccurrence come to pass. Perhaps now at twenty years, I will be able to ease that part of me, knowing that I have had this time to continue to heal myself.

The light of love never dims. Our heart lights shine on always and so tonight, as I raise a glass of champagne with my sons over dinner at home, I thank you all from my heart for your kindness, your support and your love. You are a blessing to me and I am so grateful for all of you.

Shine On!

xo

16 thoughts on “Celebrating Twenty Years

  1. Beautifully written dear lady, the words of love found, a self love that we ever struggle with. It is those hearts who share much healing, because they know its pain, they know each step…the tears, the fear, the unknown during its path, and so pass that inner truth onward, the love that it built so others may see. I am so glad to have met such a soul and know that inner freedom from its journey. Yes, it is painful…but I also know that very journey is its release. Like a butterfly ever changed through their cocoon…to take flight in all its beauty. Have a beautiful and happy new year my friend and a very big hug from down under, I’ll tuck a little sunshine within it too…even though your soul has already touched that warmth in the love you have found ❤️ 🙏🏽 🦋

    • Your comments are always so healing Mark and I appreciate our connection! Thank you! It has been a long journey, but one that I honestly wouldn’t change for what it brought to me has been fabulous in the end! Big hugs back to you and I appreciate the sunshine tucked in as we’ve had rain for many days. Big hugs. ❤️🙏🦋

  2. AND here’s to many years of wellness, peace of mind and continued love for self! It’s been a journey, but this year promises big change, I know for sure. We are ready now to help others who are hurting bad. Thankyou for your inspirations and love. Happy new earth year misifusa❤️ love Barbara x

    • Happy New Year to you Barbara! Thank you! Yes, I believe we have big changes, positive ones, coming and I am ready to shine! I know you are too! Love to you xo

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