As I climbed into bed last night, laid my weary head and heart on the soft down pillow, I sighed deeply. Such a day full of emotion and perseverance that frankly, I was exhausted. I closed my eyes and began to pray for peace as I often do. In that quiet moment of reverie, I surrendered. I had done all that I could, pushed through the limits and swallowed and alternatively let go of many tears. But as I prayed, it was in gratitude for all of the angels who attended this day.
When a loved one passes, it is never easy for those left behind. After the initial shock, because even when we know they are sick, it is still a shock to know that they have passed, there was work to be done, papers to be signed, a funeral home to be called, family and friends to be notified and a personal life of responsibility to continue living, all at the same time. It’s a day of moving through the grief in order to process the necessities that need to be done, all the while, alternatively stifling and letting out the grief of losing a loved one. Tears poured from my eyes at times and quiet sobs escaped (probably not so quietly) as the reality hit me in waves.
Last night the epiphany which I knew already, hit me. Why do we grieve when our loved one passes? Some of us believe that their departed souls return home to God and I have to ask myself, why aren’t I rejoicing that she is no longer in earthy life school, no longer suffering with a body which had grown old and desperately needed repair? My answer was selfish – I wanted to be with her when she passed and hold her hand as she departed peacefully from this earth, onward and upward back home. I wanted her to hear my voice telling her how much we loved her and although I tried to move mountains in plane travel plans, I was unable to get to her in time. What brings my sad heart peace is that I know in my heart that she knew I loved her and she was not alone when she passed. She had her pastor there, who by the grace of God, arrived only moments beforehand. She had been visited by a dear friend of ours who had kissed her on the forehead and told her how much we all loved her. At 88, she had lived a long life, on her own terms with lots of love in her heart and a dash of stubbornness which served her well. She had brought much joy to the world by being a teacher who made a difference and who had received the joy and was gifted back by her students (especially Lisa).
This morning I awoke thinking of Aunt Mable and as tears poured down my face in the early dawn, house quiet, alone with my thoughts, I realized again, how short this life can be even when it lasts 88 years and how important making connections with others truly is. Although I often write about connecting with others, I’m reminded yet again, how our legacy is in our connections and not in our earthly possessions. I think it bears repeating. Hearts connecting means more than material possessions as we flow to our next chapter. The legacy of making a difference, accepting, helping, inspiring, encouraging and loving are pricelessly worth millions in spiritual wealth.
So this morning, I bow my head in honor of a life well-lived, an Aunt whom I loved and who loved me. I know she is home again in Heaven, with her family and loved ones and she is remembered here by the loved ones and family she left behind. Surely, her soul is leaping with joy to be pain-free, her brain free of the confines of dementia, and free of the bonds of life school. Rest in peace, Aunt Mable.
Thank you dearest friends for allowing me to share this morning. I needed to write. May you have a lovely Saturday, making connections with all whom you meet and even if a simple smile passes between you and a stranger, let the love of humankind flow freely.
I understand your feelings and am deeply sorry for your loss. It took months before my mothers passing settled into my body and I was able to grieve. The intensity of it took me by surprise. We never stop missing them.
You are so right Marlene. Our loved ones who have passed live on in our hearts and memories. xo
Sorry for your loss Yvonne
Thank you David.
I am sorry for your loss. I hope that the emptiness will gradually fill with the comfort of her memories.
Thank you Dan. Her legacy of love is comforting me.
Connections truly are the prize, the goal, the reward of a life well lived. Thank you for that wise reminder, and my deepest and sincerest sympathies for the loss of Aunt Mabel. She is now free of her pains and discomforts, and able to love you peacefully, freely, and joyfully!
Thank you so much ~ much love to you xoxo
It’s been a long journey for you Yvonne. May you find peace within. Restore your energy and nurture your emotions. Much love 💕💚
Thank you ~ it has not been easy, but this is life school and I know it hasn’t been easy for you. I admire you. Much love to you as well. xo
What a beautiful tribute to your dear Aunt. I am so sorry for your loss.
Thank you Gail xo
We grieve because we care. I wasn’t at my mom’s bedside when she passed, but I was there only 30 minutes earlier and got back again right after she was gone. Her hand was still warm when I held it and cried. But eventually the grief at having lost her was replaced by the memories of all the good times together. My condolences on the loss of your Aunt Mable. She will always be alive in your heart.
Thank you for sharing. I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. xo Sending you a big heartfelt hug ♥
I am so sorry for your loss Yvonne – your post was an eloquent and bittersweet tribute. Grief takes the time it takes to process, and nothing I or anyone else can say will hasten it’s passing. I will be praying that you will find the peace you so desperately seek right now. Sending my love along with my condolences.
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Many thanks Madelyn. I am at peace because she is now at peace. I appreciate your kindness and love xo
I am happy to hear that. Bless you.
Bless you too Madelyn ♥
Many thanks Ray for the hug. Much appreciated.
Thank you for such a loving reflection Yvonne. Sending you a gentle hug 💕
Thank you Val…I surely appreciate the gentle hug xo
R.I.P. To your aunt. She’s so fortunate to have had someone like you in her life.
Thank you. It was I who was so fortunate. ♥
Yvonne, So sorry for you loss. Much of what you spoke of here I too experienced when I lost my dad and mom. But, although difficult, we must relish the pain of such loss. Because it means those we mourn were loved.