Many people will walk in and out of your life,
but only true friends leave footprints in your heart.
We have returned home without our darling Chessie Cat. My heart is breaking and I am so sad. It was an honor for us to have held this sweet kitty soul in our lives for almost 17 years and it was a blessing to be there when she passed as well. We wrapped her in the blanket that she has been sitting on for the past week on the couch, which happens to be my husband’s and we also wrapped her in my favorite nighttime sweater ~ snuggled in our love and our smells.
I couldn’t bear to bring home an empty cat carrier, even though she has one from MIL which has her name on it. So we wrapped her in the blankies and just drove slowly. I think she enjoyed being able to see out of the windows and feeling the sunshine on her face. She was actively snuggling into my arms, but keeping her head up, watching the world go by and surely wondering if I had lost my mind since she was outside, riding in the car without being in her carrier. She never uttered a peep, but leaned her head next to mine and made sure her face was to the warm sunshine.
I think she knew and being her brave, constant angelic self, she continued to hold our gazes. I held her while she leaned toward my hubby every time he stopped petting her. She wanted us to know that she was there with us ~ and we wanted her to know that we were there for her as well.
I am bereft now ~ saddened by losing my kitty angel, but I am snuggling our other kitty Tiffy as much as she’ll let me. I wonder what she is thinking as her sissy is now not here. I know she knew that Chessie was sick, but watching her today, I don’t see her mourning as much as me. Perhaps it is easier in the animal world, they know that life goes on and she accepts that Chessie is now in kitty Heaven, feeling healthy and happy.
So perhaps that’s what I have to do as well ~ change my thoughts and my perspective. Be grateful for the time we’ve enjoyed Chessie’s presence and now be grateful in knowing that she is healthy and happy in Heaven, continuing to watch over me in a different form. I just have to get my mind around that she isn’t here to purr next to me, but that she’s here in spirit, purring me into health.
Thanks for sharing this time with me throughout the last few posts. Our lives have peaks and valleys in which we travel ~ connecting with others, reading your comments, being grateful for the time you’ve taken to send a heartfelt comment, has helped me. Please know how thankful I am for all of you.
Big Hugs ~ Shine On!